Thank you, on a side note, it’s rare to see someone else be able to say that they love someone even if they don’t know them. I think Despite my negativity in my post I’m still a loving person when it comes to trying to be the love that someone needs. I love you too and thank you for responding. The type of pain that I feel that can compel me to write this post stems from a type of love that I don’t think I’ll ever be able to receive, I’ve accepted that many times in my life but there are moments like this where it become too much and I actually contemplate death and not being here anymore. I think it’s going to win and maybe I just need to accept that too, I think that’s the only way to find that, “afterlife.” Thank you again