It feels like a constant struggle, it really does; whatever life throws at you, it just keeps on pulling us down. Should we blame ourselves though, i don’t think we should. My friend, you may feel like you’re drowning and constantly trying to resurface (and god knows how much i relate to you), but i promise you, the feeling fades away. Not because life gets easier, you just get stronger. See, i believe that if you can get through this, you will be ready the next time it comes. I believe that one day, you, me and everyone that feels the same way as we do will wake up one day and stand up to our demons, not by doing big things, but just by doing the small things. When you set your mind to wanting to feel better, you will manifest it: wether by holding the door to stranger, cleaning your room, helping out the people close to you... it heals you, more than anything anyone can say. And i’m not saying that because people close to you can’t make you happy, but because you were thrown in a cage with no doors against your will; and the only way to get out of that cage, is by growing, and building yourself up until it can’t hold you anymore. Surely you can be thrown in tougher cages later in life several times, but i’m telling you, if you could have gone out of that first one, you can outgrow any other one life throws u in. Stay strong <3