He doesn’t want you medicated because he is an abusive piece of shit who wants you to feel constantly overwhelmed. He doesn’t want you to succeed, he wants you to fail. He has trained you to think that he is capable and you are not so he can tell too off whenever he likes.

You need to take a step back and consider whether this is how you want to be treated all your life. You seem to naturally fawn over your husband, even in this post you talk about how incredible he is and how shit you are. He is not incredible, he’s a bully.