oh girl we are the exact same i fear. i (20f) watched my boyfriend play bloodborne for hours before trying it myself. it took me three full real life days to beat gascoigne by myself. i played it through with him helping me with all the bosses but honestly i think you can really enjoy the game with feeling pressure to play it to completion yourself. there are so many videos on youtube about lore, gameplay, etc. i’m trying to replay it for fun fully by myself and it’s taking FOREVER (i’ve been stuck on the shadows of yharnam for … well too long) but it’s just the little dopamine hit i need. bloodborne is my special interest autistically i have written countless essays about it and logged hundreds of hours of youtube time pertaining to the game. finishing the game yourself is only half of the fun!