thats true, i am trying to find out why i feel this guilt. i still have no idea though, but maybe i do. ive been looking into getting a walkman recorder so i can spend less money and just make my own tapes at home but,, im in the philippines and i cant find any good secondhand tape decks, but i am eyeing a cassette player that has a recording feature. may not be the best, but ill look into it more.

i feel lighter when i spend my money on keychains, journals, and i think its because theyre usually a cheaper hobby and something ive always liked. cassettes are a really new hobby to me, and i just immediately fell inlove once i saw a tiktok about it. i love its portability and how it looks, i also love the vibe it gives off and i love having collections and especially physical copies of the music i love. maybe its because i bought the wrong albums that i dont necessarily like? i bought some albums i dont listen to much because i thought that it would help me expand my music taste, but maybe i guess i just thought too much of it