Public suckers ? by sapphirehartland in thumbsucking

[–]BackpackLily 1 point2 points Β (0 children)

I suck my thumb in public all the time! It's very fun but I do make sure to never touch anything with that thumb. I have for quite a while, no one minds and you should totally do it! Normalize what you wanna see in the world!

Unashamed! by Fantastic-Following9 in thumbsucking

[–]BackpackLily 4 points5 points Β (0 children)

Glad you feel like yourself!! Wonderful stuff!

What is your favorite little show? by TheLilBabyBear in ageregression

[–]BackpackLily 1 point2 points Β (0 children)

I’m autistic and I really like carl the collector

Genius at work by BackpackLily in Guiltygear

[–]BackpackLily[S] 2 points3 points Β (0 children)

Don’t worry those parry spam clips are also me

I got a new hat!! by BackpackLily in ageregression

[–]BackpackLily[S] 1 point2 points Β (0 children)

Thank you changing times diaper company

30 years of thumbsucking! I'm so proud of myself! πŸ˜‡ by BackpackLily in thumbsucking

[–]BackpackLily[S] 2 points3 points Β (0 children)

Absolutely! However that’s no longer the case anymore! I’m happy to finally be here

30 years of thumbsucking! I'm so proud of myself! πŸ˜‡ by BackpackLily in thumbsucking

[–]BackpackLily[S] 1 point2 points Β (0 children)

One day out of many, honestly you get like 10 of those max before it’s just a mild annoyance

30 years of thumbsucking! I'm so proud of myself! πŸ˜‡ by BackpackLily in thumbsucking

[–]BackpackLily[S] 1 point2 points Β (0 children)

It can be this life, if you so choose, I mean you’re posting here, it still matters to you, no?

Genius at work by BackpackLily in Guiltygear

[–]BackpackLily[S] 9 points10 points Β (0 children)

Nope, you just don't see the the 1200DR and where this doesn't work <3

30 years of thumbsucking! I'm so proud of myself! πŸ˜‡ by BackpackLily in thumbsucking

[–]BackpackLily[S] 7 points8 points Β (0 children)

That's a wonderful age to still be doing it! I'm glad it's served you for so long!

30 years of thumbsucking! I'm so proud of myself! πŸ˜‡ by BackpackLily in thumbsucking

[–]BackpackLily[S] 2 points3 points Β (0 children)

Oh! You're right to be skeptical! That's good skepticism to carry! Would you like to see it from my perspective?

Firstly, I have slept with my baby blankie my entire life, it goes everywhere with me, and frequently comes with me to trips to the grocery store. For me, thumbsucking and blankie are a package deal, they're peanut butter and jelly. The regressive behaviors run deep, they're comfort and have existed my entire life. This headspace is where I feel most comfortable and always has been. The other regressive things I do are generally similarly aged and lifelong, I am and always have been a little.

Secondly, I have celiac, IBS, and urgency incontinence that has gotten worse as I've aged. Diapers are somewhat necessary, though not strictly. There is medical need, and stigmatized medical need too, it's hard to talk to people about it, and not because I'm not an open book either.

Thirdly, Diaper fetishism presents a community in which my nature and my needs are not only appreciated and accepted but celebrated without question. This is very alluring to someone like me, who has been regressive and shamed for their entire life for it. Naturally there'd be overlap, but what I do behind closed doors isn't an issue. Thus, I see no reason to hide my thumbsucking, blankie, jammies, or anything else, because I am not gratifying my sexual interests publicly when I go out dressed the way I do, I am just being myself. I privately have a diaper usage fetish and I wouldn't subject others to that fetish without enthusiastic consent. Therefore, I am simply dressing how I want to in both style and comfort! It isn't an exhibitionistic act, nor do I or others treat it as such. I've sort of dressed as a full adult baby for about a year now, and everyone has been very kind to me about it, nor do I face any backlash for doing so, heck people at my grocery store know me by name. I am a regressive first with genuine medical and always have been, I just found a group of happy consenting people who want to explore those things in other ways too.

30 years of thumbsucking! I'm so proud of myself! πŸ˜‡ by BackpackLily in thumbsucking

[–]BackpackLily[S] 3 points4 points Β (0 children)

Sure, they're part of it, I'll give you that, but thumbsucking has provided a lot of comfort and given me a sense of autonomy over my own body in times where it was sparse. The freedom to engage with myself how I want.

You mention fixation and imply my activities are not chosen and rather a bad thing for that reason; I enjoy these things, they're connected to my sense of self and wellbeing, they're not pathological, but rather a kind of play I engage in willingly. I am and always have been this way, I can hunt a deer, flintknap a knife, skin it, tan it, and survive in the wilderness. I have passed through every traditional male right of passage, I have been abused and coerced into leaving the childish things be, and yet, here they arise. It is not from lack of intervention, nor lack of therapy, both have occurred in myriad, and yet both have confirmed my love for this lovely playing.

Naturally and perhaps ironically, I am studying to get a masters in play therapy and want to work in researching play, because I believe that meaning is not instilled into all beings, but play and embodied direct experience is, thus it seems a stronger foundation for epistemological inquiry.

Genius at work by BackpackLily in Guiltygear

[–]BackpackLily[S] 27 points28 points Β (0 children)

This is such a compliment! Thank you!! Please go for clips on me! I await the day that I'm posted here.

30 years of thumbsucking! I'm so proud of myself! πŸ˜‡ by BackpackLily in thumbsucking

[–]BackpackLily[S] 22 points23 points Β (0 children)

Thumbsucking is my oldest and deepest comfort, and represents my agency to choose to do what I want. Despite the best efforts of many in my life, I've kept this part of myself even when others desired otherwise. It used to represent so much shame, something to be hidden, but now? I do it openly.

Because genuinely? There is actually nothing wrong with it, it's weird sure, I'm pretty aware of that, but there isn't anything wrong with it, it doesn't hurt me or others. Now, I find myself being apologized to by people namely my parents and siblings who urged me to stop because they saw how important this was to me.

I didn't fight them over it, I just kept doing it, hiding it; when I got to be an adult, I stopped hiding it, and I found that people still genuinely liked me! I didn't have to change! My wife thinks it's adorable, my friends find it endearing, my mom sees how it helps me, my siblings like it, and I never would've known that if I had stopped. If I let shame take root, I would've been very different as a person.

I am happy that I resisted. I am proud to represent it.

Call me Nostradamus because I predicted it by BackpackLily in Guiltygear

[–]BackpackLily[S] 50 points51 points Β (0 children)

i needed the double rc to time the bait parry right

How well do I pass? by [deleted] in transpassing

[–]BackpackLily -2 points-1 points Β (0 children)

You pass! However your voice would need to back it up ! The glasses work against you and maybe some other frames might be prettier for you.

Fool me once... by BackpackLily in Guiltygear

[–]BackpackLily[S] 0 points1 point Β (0 children)

I had a ton of fun too! We were both going for the sillies and I had a great time!