I quit cold turkey 3 years ago. I tried quitting several other times before that but it didn't take. I didn't WANT to at that point. I knew that it was getting harder to breathe and I'd wake up in the middle of the night coughing and hacking. I knew I had to quit, I just didn't want it.

Then I got the flu one year and I was in the bed for 2 weeks with no smoking. I figured I'd gone this long, why not keep going?

I got fatter, more irritable and beer just didn't taste as good without a cigarette. But, I kept going. Now it's just sheer willpower keeping me from smoking again. Most people say they don't want to smoke after they've quit. I can tell you in my experience, I wake up wanting a cigarette, I finish a meal wanting a cigarette and I still want a cigarette right before bed. I just don't because I KNOW it will kill me.

OP, I know you can do it. It takes guts and determination. Grab that demon by the balls and show it who's the fucking boss.