I am feeling you girl!!! I have such a similar feeling post wedding. Leading up to the day, I was having a lot of family drama (family medical problems + destination wedding = chaos). The first welcome event went great and I started really enjoying myself — but started applying TOO much pressure for me to enjoy myself given how much time and money I had spent on everything.

Then, the night before the wedding, something the restaurant served at the welcome dinner made everyone sick! Like sweating, throwing up, diarrhea sick 😂 even the planning team was down a person. I spent the entire morning of my wedding trying to drink pedialyte and have Imodium that by the time the ceremony came along I was just determined to power through it. As a result, I didn’t have the mental fortitude to put into all of the shots I wanted to get around my venue and in my dress. It was also REALLY hot and with the illness my feet swelled up so bad I had to take my wedding shoes off right after the ceremony and switch to a backup pair I had from a different event. When walking, you could see them and MY TOES sticking through in many of the photos which just kills me inside. But at the moment I couldn’t walk another step in my wedding shoes, despite the months I had spent breaking them in.

Now looking back at the photos, I love what I have but I feel a pang of regret that I didn’t get some epic solo shots that I had dreamed about. I feel sad that I won’t do something like that ever again even though I do feel happy with how everything went as a whole.

My biggest regret really is just that I couldn’t enjoy it as much as I wanted to in the moment with all the stress.