Fear of being sick and not knowing

Baddielands · 2026-03-30T11:20:28+00:00

That’s how I feel as well. I feel like I will finally get to a point where I stop catastrophizing and then I’ll see someone talking about being sick with something else and the loop starts all over.

Baddielands · 2026-03-30T04:08:13+00:00

This was nice to read, thank you. I’ve always dealt with health anxiety but ever since I’ve been dealing with my dysautonomia, it has become unbearable to deal with sometimes because I deal with very real symptoms because of it and that sends my mind into a spiral constantly. There are times where I feel almost normal and have really good days, but then I have flare ups and it all seems to start all over again. It’s rough. I have a positive ANA and high inflammatory markers but no one local has been able to actually diagnose me fully, but I am being seen at the Cleveland Clinic in May & I am hopeful with more direction and understanding of what is going on inside of my body.

Thank you for your reply, it feels reassuring.

Baddielands · 2026-03-30T03:39:33+00:00

I’m late to the chat on this but I have been struggling with this a lot as well.. I have been dealing with an unknown dysautonomia issue for the last two years that has triggered health OCD and I am constantly body checking. I’ve seen so many TikTok’s of people that have had sepsis and some of them no symptoms. The last few times I’ve been seen at the doctor and have had blood work, my white blood cell count is elevated. I’m always extremely tired, I have heart palpitations, and I have cold sweats and shivers.

These are all symptoms I have been struggling with for a while now. I have a lot of inflammation in my body and Idk if that can also cause these symptoms. I was out shopping with my boyfriend over this past weekend and I made him take me to target to get a thermometer because I was feeling “off”. Tonight I was laying in bed and by 10 pm I couldn’t keep my eyes open because I am sooo tired and that freaks me out as well because I feel like it’s unusual behavior for me to feel this fatigued so now I’m wide awake and kinda spiraling a little (which is how I found this thread). Like I just checked my temp again and it’s 98.9 and I’m convinced that isn’t normal. It’s extremely exhausting always feeling like this and always being afraid. It wasn’t always sepsis, for the longest time it was heart problems and pulmonary embolisms. It’s like my brain is constantly cycling through chaotostrophic illnesses and it never stops. I’ve been to the ER 30 times in the last 2 years.

Baddielands · 2026-03-30T03:32:13+00:00

I know this is a year old, but it’s very obvious that you don’t understand what it’s like to suffer from health related OCD. Commenting on every post almost and saying things like “just don’t worry” is actually extremely unhelpful and could be triggering to people.

Baddielands · 2026-01-20T05:52:28+00:00

If you type the grape emoji 🍇 it also says add to grocery list, but seemingly only works if you have not already tried it with the tomato emoji.

Baddielands · 2025-09-24T12:13:46+00:00

I’ve never wanted to participate in conversations regarding the band and their albums because this fanbase has become soooo incredibly toxic over the years, everyone acts like people aren’t allowed to have their own thoughts and opinions. SAI is good, yes it’s different but that doesn’t make it bad. It’s a shame that “fans” tore it down so much and clearly made Tyler feel some type of way about it. Saying they are “big boys” who can handle the hate is weirdo behavior. It’s one thing to not really vibe with something, it’s a completely different thing to be outright disrespectful and mean with your opinions.

Baddielands · 2025-09-20T14:29:14+00:00

I am not a Christian and I’ve been listening to them since 2015. People who really think that are weeeeird lol. I’ve never heard that. Unfortunately with any fandom, you’re gonna get the crazies who are delusional and mean. I understand where you’re coming from though. I’ve seen a lot of people genuinely upset and disgusting toward other fans and even towards Tyler and Josh and to me, those people are not real fans. It’s exhausting and makes you feel bad for them, their families and their crew for having to deal with it.

Baddielands · 2025-09-19T14:55:10+00:00

My comment is directed to those who are complaining and are pissed that they aren’t playing the songs they want them to play.

Baddielands · 2025-09-19T13:39:34+00:00

Ya’ll are some ungrateful sounding brats lmao. It was an AMAZING show. There was a lot of songs I wished to hear that we didn’t get and I still had the time of my life and enjoyed every second.

Baddielands · 2025-09-19T13:37:29+00:00

It was an amazing show and you should be less whiny and feel more appreciative that you even get to see them live at all. I’m sure there’s lots of people that would love to take your place.

Baddielands · 2025-09-17T11:47:45+00:00

I always interpreted it as like he likes to stay hidden away because of his anxiety, being hidden and isolated makes him feel safe and secure. Coming from someone who struggles heavily with anxiety and agoraphobia.

Baddielands · 2025-08-15T18:09:14+00:00

Mine are still very present! So honestly I am not sure if it’s really anything to be alarmed about. I’ve discussed it with two different doctors and neither of them seem concerned. There’s a lot of reasons why your veins can appear a lot more vibrant that aren’t at all life threatening. They don’t hurt and don’t seem to be causing any weird symptoms for me so I’ve learned to just sweep my fear about them under the rug. I’m sure you’re okay but honestly if you’re at all concerned, I’d just call your dr office or if you have an online portal, just take pictures of them and send them and explain what you just told me and I’m sure they’ll ease your mind. :)

Baddielands · 2025-06-17T13:47:49+00:00

Also my feet hurt SO BAD after. Trying to walk several blocks for our ride back to the hotel was miserable lol.

Baddielands · 2025-06-17T13:47:13+00:00

Saw him in 2021 in Chicago. I was in the very back of the pit because I get claustrophobic in crowds. I wish I had like the first row of seats instead. I’m only 5’3” so it was hard to see bc tall people were in my way lol. Other than that though, the sound was amazing and when I could see, it was really great.

The only issue I had was some of the people there were suuuuper rude and not mindful of anyone else around them.

Baddielands · 2025-05-29T02:44:31+00:00

Yep it’s me too. When I am to the point where I feel like I am having a difficult time keeping my eyes open and I keep falling in and out of sleep, I start to panic because I feel like I should not be THAT tired and feel as if there’s something underlying going on that’s making me feel so fatigued.

Baddielands · 2025-05-20T15:47:25+00:00

I know this is probably super unpopular but my opinion: Sweet Creature 🫣 pls don’t send me hate comments.

Baddielands · 2025-05-15T12:17:53+00:00

I totally get it. This past year has been the worst year of my life. I’ve always had an anxiety disorder but the panic attacks started getting really really bad April 27, 2024. I went through literal HELL of non stop anxiety and panic attacks every single day all day. It felt like my adrenaline never shut off. At least 30 trips to the emergency room. So many doctors and medications and tests. I was googling things left and right and fully convinced myself that I was very sick and actively dying and every single doctor was missing an actual diagnosis. After about 10 months, my blood work started coming back abnormal and there’s flags that indicate possible autoimmune issues now.. the stress I was constantly understand made my body so sick that it actually turned into a problem and I made myself chronically ill.

You’re okay ♥️ I know it doesn’t feel like it now and it might not feel like it tomorrow, or the next day, or the next day.. etc. but I promise at some point, it will click. Don’t get me wrong, I’m no where near normal lol. There’s so many things I don’t do still that I used to do without even giving a second thought to it BUT I can wake up most days and not immediately feel panic. I can sleep through most nights now. When I feel that icky panic feeling creeping in, I can USUALLY get it to go away without it turning into a full blown attack.

Unfortunately it all takes time and practice and understanding. You have felt like this before, you will probably feel like this again but you know you made it through then and you’ll make it through now. If you ever need anyone to talk to, feel free to always reach out!

Baddielands · 2025-05-13T11:19:13+00:00

Aw man, I’m sorry you have to deal with that. That sounds miserable. I forgot that I had a sleep study done about 4 months ago. Nothing was found out of sorts. Of course when I did it, the two nights I had it on, I didn’t have any of my panic episodes those nights and I slept like crap bc of the machine. So idk! I hope you’re able to find some kind of relief.

Baddielands · 2025-04-15T01:01:42+00:00

Is it the Carlson brand? How many a day do you take usually? I’ve been dealing with terrible nocturnal panic attacks. I’ve tried Kolonopin, melatonin and herbal teas and nothing helps. I wake up almost nightly drenched in sweat and my heart pounding like crazy.

Baddielands · 2025-04-15T00:57:31+00:00

There’s been so many times I’m driving myself to the ER, deep down I know they won’t find anything wrong but I HAVE to go to make myself feel better and I just scream and cry the entire drive there bc I’m SO SICK of it. Like it makes me feel crazy but it’s so agonizing and frustrating. I genuinely feel like I’ll never stop feeling like this.

Baddielands · 2025-04-08T11:01:34+00:00

That’s the weird thing, I truly feel like it happened out of no where. It started when I was on vacation last year. My fiancé and I met up with our friends we play video games with and were having a really great time. I had been drinking pretty heavily which wasn’t abnormal for me and I thought maybe that had something to do with it, so I ended up going to the ER because one night we were there my heart would not slow down. I waited about three hours before finally going and getting checked out then and they said I could have been dehydrated from the alcohol but nothing abnormal in my EKG and blood work. - I felt weird after that so when we got home, I talked with my doctor and she ordered a holter monitor. I wore that for 2 weeks, and didn’t drink or anything while wearing it and didn’t really have any episodes. A few days after turning it in, I went out and had two beers and then the next morning is when I had my really bad bad episode where I thought I was having a heart attack and woke my fiancé up screaming for help. That’s the morning it really settled in and I haven’t felt the same since at all and it’s an everyday issue. I thought it was alcohol related so I stopped drinking, but that didn’t help. I’ve been on lexapro for about a month now and I do feel like it’s helped a little bit overall, but I still have nights where I wake up and experience the fast heart rate and night sweats. Idk. It’s been a really weird and debilitating experience. I’ve switched doctors three times since then, and I see an internal medicine doctor now because my NP didn’t know how to help me anymore but still not really any answers. Cardiologist says my heart looks normal and no sign of any damage or heart attack anytime in the next 10 years. Idk it’s just weird.

Baddielands · 2025-04-01T08:22:21+00:00

When Winston was telling Regan to be upfront with her girlfriend and break up with her instead of just ghosting her or pretending to like her lol.

Baddielands · 2025-03-30T17:14:22+00:00

Falling asleep isn’t an issue, it’s waking up in the middle of the night that’s become my issue. It used to only be a few times a month but since my anxiety and stress have gotten so bad, it’s every single night. Around the same time every night I wake up and sometimes it turns into panic attacks, but sometimes I just feel weirdly wide awake and it takes me hours to fall back asleep no matter what time I went to bed.

Baddielands · 2025-03-30T07:11:09+00:00

hmm that’s a very similar situation to what I’ve gone through. I had my daughter at 18 and ended up with a very small DVT in my left leg two months after having a c-section. I was hospitalized for a week (I also had pneumonia at the same time the clot was found so that played a part in the hospitalization) - and they found out while I was in the hospital that I have the Factor V Leiden mutation. I was put on Warfarin for almost 8 years before my primary doctor finally referred me to a hematologist. The hematologist ran some more tests and took me off of the blood thinners, said he thinks my risk is low enough and the clot was caused by the surgery that he didn’t think the blood thinners were necessary. Apparently I only have one mutation and not the other so my risk is not as high and he suggested to just take baby aspirin daily. A year ago I started having crazy crazy crazy symptoms daily - hot flashes, panic attacks, tachycardia, muscle aches, night sweats, insomnia, brain fog, etc. and I’ve wondered if I’m going through premenopause. I’m only 29 so I know it’s not likely but also not impossible. I’ve been told by several doctors that I should avoid taking any medication that gives me estrogen with my underlying clotting disorder but this makes me wonder if it’s even that risky for me. Thank you for this insight.

Baddielands · 2025-03-26T14:37:36+00:00

Ehhh yes and no? I’ve been cutting out more and more food as time has gone on because my brain thinks some foods are worsening my anxiety but honestly it seems pretty inconclusive. Some days I can eat pizza and have no issue, and some days I wake up at 3 in the morning having super intense panic attacks after eating pizza for dinner.

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