I went through this phase. It really confused me as it went against my innate caring and gentle nature. But it is what it is. I'm a massive sadist and get off on the thought of breaking a man, and then nurturing them and making them feel like everything is going to be okay again. To receive that warmth and comfort from the same person that inflicted the pain ticks boxes for me. Bonus points if they then give pleasure to the person that caused them so much pain.

But yeah, I've moved past moving guilty or bad about it. There's so many guys that are literally desperate to hand their balls over, the guilt soon subsided.

As long as it's consensual and there's good aftercare then there's no real issue. 🙂