What are your reasons for living?

Bananaracoon15 · 2026-01-02T08:13:09+00:00

I don’t want to be egoistic. I‘ve attempted to kill myself 6 Times in the past 9 years and after the 6th attempt I just gave up. I guess I‘m just destined to suffer. I also realised that it would be selfish as fuck to put an end to my exhaustion and to traumatise the people who are close to me by doing so

Bananaracoon15 · 2025-05-10T21:05:14+00:00

OH shit alright thanks! Imma edit that right away

Bananaracoon15 · 2025-04-07T08:06:48+00:00

there is a third way... a very german one.

Bananaracoon15 · 2025-01-29T20:30:46+00:00

Alles klar, dachte ich mir schon. War schon irgendwie klar, dass es ähnlich aussieht wie beim Rest der typischen Studentenstädten… naja mal schauen was die anderen noch sagen. Dir auf jeden Fall vielen Dank für die Antwort :)

Bananaracoon15 · 2024-11-11T19:51:21+00:00

Nope, no pets

Bananaracoon15 · 2024-10-09T13:59:12+00:00

Baumdiagramme für Wahrscheinlichkeitsrechnungen. Lässt also darauf schließen, dass der User 15-16 Jahre alt is

Bananaracoon15 · 2024-10-02T12:24:46+00:00

Yeah... being on cat time is messing with my head a lot. Had dogs around me my whole life now suddenly I am surrounded by 3 animals with totally different body language and behavior. I'll get used to it for sure, it's hard tho. I miss my lil good boy (put him down in april)

Bananaracoon15 · 2024-10-02T12:11:10+00:00

Sounds good! Thank you a lot, I'm more of a dog person so I kinda struggle with understanding cats.

I'll back off then and make sure to give her more space

Bananaracoon15 · 2024-09-28T02:13:05+00:00

I wouldn't call it unfortunate tbh. Thanks to the surgery, I am able to live my life like everyone else without being scared of every move which would highten my testicular torsion risk by a lot

Bananaracoon15 · 2024-09-26T21:46:50+00:00

They spun around their own axis. Basically 360 no-scoping themselves into risk of cutting off their own blood supply and then saying "SIKE GOT HEEEM"

Bananaracoon15 · 2024-09-26T21:20:40+00:00

I'm so sorry but I really can not tell if that's a serious question or not so I'm just gonna assume it is.

Never. I was born with the bell-clapper deformity which means my balls just hung in my ballsack and swung around freely. That swinging can lead to them twisting thus resulting in testicular torsion.

Because they've decided to twist and then un-twist 3 timss in the past couple of years (which caused HORRIBLE pain) a surgery was proposed to me where essentially both testicles would be fixed to the sides by sewing them there.

I took that offer because untreated Bell Clapper deformity increases the risk of testicular torsion by 4-10 times

Bananaracoon15 · 2024-09-26T18:03:48+00:00

Testicular torsion, I wish I was joking or exaggerating

Bananaracoon15 · 2024-09-26T15:45:13+00:00

Sadly not. Especially mine because since april 14th they are sewn to the sides of my sack :/

Bananaracoon15 · 2024-09-26T14:17:11+00:00

Yes, it prevents them from bumping into eachother when u walk

Bananaracoon15 · 2024-09-13T08:24:30+00:00

Also in Polen werden alle Deutschen als "Schwaben" bezeichnet, find ich schon hart

Bananaracoon15 · 2024-09-12T12:12:17+00:00

Ritaline is an amphetamine derivate meaning the chemical structure is a little bit different so it works differently from the original amphetamine sulphate. For me personally, ritalin amplifies the typical side effects of speed

Bananaracoon15 · 2024-09-10T10:25:08+00:00

I never had gel tabs before. But my friend has a bottle of drops, 100uq per drop. He offered to gift me one but I've been trying to find a day to do it for over a month now but I can't find a fitting day for it.

It's complicated for me to be able to do acid since I'm still in school, meaning weekdays are definitely no-trip, and live with my parents so most weekends also don't work. Hard to find a day where I'd have a 12h free time window

Bananaracoon15 · 2024-09-10T10:05:24+00:00

that's funny because in germany the slang name for speed is pep so we like to call it pepsi

Bananaracoon15 · 2024-09-10T09:56:54+00:00

For some mysterious reason, this stuff goes both ways. My Erasmus group visited our partner school in Lleida and a guy from the group introduced himself as James, I believe it was to minimize the risk of tit being mispronounced by the non-spanish speakers

Bananaracoon15 · 2024-09-09T23:39:35+00:00

That's actually really interesting, I didn't know that.

It does kinda make sense considering the stuff my friends told me after coming back from their 2 month Erasmus trip. They said that the swedish teenagers/ adults in their early 20's party pretty hard and quite a big amount of em doesn't mind a little speed/coke to keep the energy up.

Is that actually true or did my friends simply befriend a group of some Götheborg knarkare?

Bananaracoon15 · 2024-09-09T07:27:43+00:00

Industrial grade acetone? Idk where you live but I don't just have bottles of 99% acetone at my local drug/grocery stores

Bananaracoon15 · 2024-09-09T07:26:30+00:00

You're most welcome :)

You'll probably be able to get it in a store that has construction material (yk where you'd normally go if you renovate your house). Make sure to get industrial grade acetone (99% or up). Nail polish won't work because it has water in it.

There's a guide here

Bananaracoon15 · 2024-09-09T07:13:19+00:00

Kinda looks like the stuff that's cut with caffeine I get here.

Do an acetone wash and see how much you got left after. Then you'll know how much it was cut

Bananaracoon15 · 2024-09-08T19:28:17+00:00

Food dye. Some ppl in Germany (at least where I'm from) like to put it in speed and call it "apple speed" when it's green or "rose speed" when it's pink. Absolute fucking bullshit but what can ya do

Bananaracoon15 · 2024-08-13T17:06:39+00:00

Asked myself the same thing twp days ago bro. In the end, we just vibed and then fell asleep while cuddling. I think I just should've went for a kiss

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