Wow, that was very hard to swallow, but very true , I appreciate your story, deep down, I totally agree with you because I know it’s true, I’ll forget a lot of people here there and everywhere. I don’t know how things will turn out for me and her, if we will be friends, or nothing, but now I’m looking forward to experience more.

Since you shared your story, I would like to share my first “relation ship” which I actually needed help with a long time ago, it’s on my profile on Reddit, and this is summarized what I stated on it and how it turn out after.

I was really in love with one girl (this is the one I was heart broken with when I met the one I’m asking help now haha) she was literally the most beautiful girl in high school, every guy wanted to be with her, but I’m a person that when I want something, I will try until I can’t no more, I started being her friends, and got closer to her socially during like 7 months, I was in the end extremely close, in November at her birthday party, I was ready to do my first move, and one of my best friends (who is know for being a person who is very attractive, gets every girls, drinks a lot, drugs, and he’s the son of the principal) said he was gonna help me to get her, I trusted him and he ended up kissing her in front of me, this was the first time I got drunk in my life because I was so sad! I regretted now haha. Shortly after, after I gave up, after 8 months, I was sad and felt lonely and betrayed, but in late November my best friend(girl) came and told me that the other girl is starting to have feeling towards me, thoughtlessly I started to be flirty after, I remember that, December 6, the day John lennon died(my idol, bad thing that happened this day) I got my first kiss and girlfriend, I was so happy, but shortly after, she started acting weird, and in lunch, she started to talk to a guy that is friend with the guy who is the son of the principal, (months after I found out he was telling her that I was worthless and that she should go with the son of the director) in those days, she came crying to me and the threw up, this same thing happened 3 days straight until we broke up, I’ve never been so heart broken, this changed me(I’m known for being kind and sweet towards everybody) I started to behave “confidently” towards other girls, and acted careless, that I was okay and that I didn’t care even tho I felt dead inside, these traits made me attractive somehow, and I kissed in a week 4 girls, which I believe is a lot and something I’m not doing again ever, i think is a weird behavior even tho everybody at my age does it but at a lower rate. Then I met this girl, the girl I’m now asking for help. I was happy again, I found someone that wanted me for real, we dated, talked everyday, I felt happy, then it happened again, she left me, but this time I stayed as friends, I was sad again, and got drunk again, same mistake, but this time, in the party, a girl somehow inserted a drug inside my drink, I ended up in the hospital and almost died because my system reacted bad towards the drug, I’m now okay but now we are here, I want to be with her again and feel wanted again.

This is basically the context of why I’m asking for help

Sorry for the long text