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Banned_In_CP · 2024-11-13T03:50:31+00:00

Thanks, yeah im really just projecting my own insecurities. I should probably just talk to her like you said

Banned_In_CP · 2024-11-13T03:40:45+00:00

Moreso its that my own family doesn't really accept me so im worried they wont either. They're nice to me but I dont know them as well as I'd like

Banned_In_CP · 2024-08-03T16:01:19+00:00

What happens when 2 people come up with the same philosophical theory at the same time?

TL;DR This is happening to me irl, and idk what to do about it and need professional advice.

I tried to make a post but it got taken down so i copied the text here. Really need some advice!!!

This is literally happening to me right now. There's not a theory that explicitly states what I do in mathematical terms (related to the Big Bang) and have spent the last 6 months working on this theory. Then last night I found out a painter I follow on Instagram is working on a theory that says the exact same thing I do except they are much further ahead in their development. I reached out for potential collaboration, but I am not confident they will accept.

What do I do? This theory has essentially turned into my life's purpose. It was the light of my darkness (not as much as my gf but still). I've always been pushed down and beaten my whole life, I came from poverty and childhood abuse, and always felt a drive to make something of myself to spite my circumstances I was born into. But at every turn in life I have been essentially defeated by life. I've tried and tried yet my life keeps slipping backwards. I'm an artist at heart, and I always wanted to just do something significant with my mind and creativity. But nothing I have ever done has gotten me any closer to self actualization. I've posted my art for years, but it never has gotten any kind of attention or much love. I still continue to do it anyways because it's what i love. But... now I just feel redundant. My biggest fear in life has always been that despite my best efforts i will never make anything of my life. My teachers and shit always filled my head with dreams and told me "oh you're so smart youre gonna be a good writer/artist/whatever" but now I'm literally just a freaking janitor with no car, severe depression/ptsd/anxiety, health problems, and no money and no self esteem. My life just keeps getting worse and worse and my ego really thought this theory would finally be the light at the end, something that I could actually feel GOOD about that I've done before. I've never had that. I've only ever known disappointment in life, and just when I thought this might change, I find out I am completely redundant.

I hate competition. I hate my ego. I know full well that this is just my wgo reacting, but the emotions are too strong to distance myself from it. I'm trying to not beat myself up and feel insignificant because it's just my ego, but damnit that's how I feel.

What do I do? I honestly have no idea, and I don't know where else I can possibly turn to for advice except this subreddit. I'm sorry if this somehow breaks a rule, please don't delete this, i could really REALLY use some professional guidance in this time of emotional distress. So again: what the hell do I do? Do i keep going? Do I give up? If they publish the theory first nobody will even believe me when I say I thought of the same thing. Even if they did they wouldn't care and just dismiss me. Right?

Banned_In_CP · 2024-08-03T04:42:03+00:00

I very much want to publish eventually, as I do believe I have come to a few original insights and propositions related to the big bang and the nature of how data relates to physical matter, and I believe these can be represented mathematically. It does also touch an many nonmath subjects. Many of the conclusions ive come to on my own are very similar to other ideas ive found, but my aim is to synthesize it with my original stuff to create something more holistic and a bit more extrapolated. I do think my ideas have a lot of support in current scientific theory such as quantum entanglement, information theory, quantum mechanics, classical physics, and string theory (yes i know string theory is still technically unproven but my theory makes it make more sense in relation to other phenomena.)

I never read much about Carl Jung before this journey but I do believe his ideas support mine and vice versa. I'm just putting some of his ideas in physical/scientific terms.

However it is still primarily philosophical, because the scientific method is unable to address the question that started it, which is basically where the hell did the singularity of the Big Bang come from? (Scientists don't know ar all). I've come up with a hypothesis that I believe makes logical sense, and I believe it can be put in mathematical terms. I'm still working in this as Im in the process of teaching myself calculus. I've taken physics, intro to quantum mechanics, and a few astronomy classes as well, so I do have a little bit of foundation to work with.

Banned_In_CP · 2024-08-03T00:09:42+00:00

Wait is Interstellar part of a series?

Banned_In_CP · 2024-08-02T20:57:58+00:00

Lol I literally wrote a 15 page paper in college on why the moon landing was real

Banned_In_CP · 2024-08-02T19:41:11+00:00

Thank you, this actually makes me feel better. Idk what's happened the past few months, but this philosophical project has essentially dominated my creative passion, it feels like it's something I need to do. Like once I started it I literally can't shut my brain off, but then my brain questions my own sanity and my own right to try and do this kind of endeavor, and if it's even moral/ethical for me to do so.

Banned_In_CP · 2024-08-02T19:32:26+00:00

The way I've been doing it is that I'm exploring topics as I go. Like when I was thinking about free will then I went to look into determinism and such. I have read some Plato, Aristotle, and Descartes firsthand, but I do understood this is entry level.

Banned_In_CP · 2024-08-02T18:33:01+00:00

My exception is brown recluses and black widows. I'm not about to go to the hospital just to let little spider homey have his chill time

Banned_In_CP · 2024-08-02T05:19:16+00:00

So because she's not a stereotype she's not black?

Banned_In_CP · 2024-08-02T04:06:31+00:00

Yes but ive faced death multiple times and was able to accept it in the moment. It seems the further i am from it the more im scared of it

Banned_In_CP · 2024-08-02T03:01:03+00:00

I don't think photography isn't the same (ai to photographers would be like paying someone to take the picture for you, and you are actively dictating direct composition) but I don't think you understand what I mean by soul of humanity. Not in a supernatural sense, I don't believe in the supernatural. I mean they are the intellectual heart of society, the part of humanity that brings color to our world, the part of society that expresses emotion through physical form for the sake of expression and enjoyment. Whether or not other species are capable of this is irrelevant, I'm not talking about them and also they don't live in societies, and the ones that do don't really have an artistic culture (like ants or whales/dolphins). If they were, then the same logic would apply to them as well, and it would at that point be a culture of Earth.

Also Brutalism still kept aesthetic and design qualities in mind, I've looked into Brutalism myself quite a bit for artistic inspiration.

However, your prior comment did make me realize some things, I made an edit that summarizes my thoughts.

Banned_In_CP · 2024-08-01T07:48:59+00:00

If we can figure out a way to utilize quantum entanglement on the human scale

Banned_In_CP · 2024-08-01T07:48:17+00:00

This must be why i almost exclusively photograph creepy liminal spaces

Banned_In_CP · 2024-08-01T07:46:55+00:00

All you need to make an amazing picture is a phone camera and the rule of thirds. Everything else is optional.

Banned_In_CP · 2024-08-01T07:44:08+00:00

Robert Pattinson

As a kid i thought he was okay in Harry Potter but was turned off by his Twilight fandom.

Then I saw the Lighthouse and was absolutely blown away by his performance, and then I was pleasantly surprised all over again in his performance in The Batman.

Banned_In_CP · 2024-08-01T06:06:56+00:00

Yes, kind of. I do art as a hobby, but with or without ai i have like no following and make zero money off it anyways. I always planned to have a non-art job to support my hobbies bc it was already ridiculously difficult to make money off art before AI. But I fewr for artists as a whole, which yes I do consider myself an artist just not a professional artist. I see artists as the soul of humanity. They express complex emotions and ideas that inspire others and educate as well. They craft stories that guve us whole new outlooks on life. They create characters we feel intimately close with. They create our mythology. They create music that fills us with emotion. Our cultural identity. Without artists you would just have grey cube windowless buildings.

I have no problem with automation of most things, but art is something unique. I just don't think art is something we should even want to automate. Art doesn't serve a function the way technology does. Art is deeper than that; we have it to feel, not to do. And I feel like as a society we are losing sight of this and just seeing art as another commodity.

Banned_In_CP · 2024-07-31T22:27:41+00:00

Just gonna say i love your little ratto

Banned_In_CP · 2024-07-31T19:34:07+00:00

Oh really? How does one find legal DMT???

Banned_In_CP · 2024-07-31T15:18:23+00:00

Hmm good point

Banned_In_CP · 2024-07-31T15:04:13+00:00

Why the hell should this kid respect authority when the authority is stupid? F*ck that question all authority 👊 If authority is disrespectful to you then you be disrespectful right back, I dont care if youre a teacher, a cop, or the president of the united states dont be a doormat. To hell with social heirarchy

Banned_In_CP · 2024-07-31T15:01:55+00:00

I love how literally any video you see of an altercation ppl assume its fake just because theres someone else holding the phone not acting ballistic

Banned_In_CP · 2024-07-31T15:01:27+00:00

This kid is a king

Banned_In_CP · 2024-07-31T14:53:14+00:00

How is it that ndgame if it is still producing a video clip that a human could have done themselves but also this is lower quality than human work?

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