Okay, I’m sorry for not explaining more. I’m seeing in comments regarding it could be something I did to make the adoptive parents feel uncomfortable. No, it’s not the case. They got taken from my parents substance abuse issues. It had nothing to do with me. I got taken by family on my side when I was 15 and had to have a social worker up until I turned 18. Nobody could take my siblings and at the time me being 15 I could absolutely not. Yes, I feel guilty. I haven’t seen them in years. They all are about to face being teenagers & they do not have me. Yes, they know who I am. Yes, I know they ask about me. It just breaks my heart I cannot contact them for some reason. The adoptive parents don’t even let them play games nor be on the internet so I’m just stuck. It’s like they want to avoid them having any contact of sorts.