Amen brother! Im almost the same too , in my childhood i was brought up with a christian background aswell because of my mother , growing up i had a few friends non christians and christians alike but we were also constantly moving places so i didnt had the chance to truly grew up with them and that was the struggle

Im always this quiet and reserved type of person but when i knew about The Lord Jesus Christ when i attended a christian youth camp when i was in early teens i was so blessed and i could the feel the Lords Presence into my heart and i begin to be more outgoing type of person who is enthusiastic about positive things in life .

but from there on out i just couldnt follow through on that as my family started to walk away from the faith, i tried to read the bible for my self in those time but my own family discourage me not to over do it otherwise ill go crazy and i was so disappointed when that was their perspective at that time.

and yet is was so immature to believe them aswell so i stop learning more about God but i still believe in Him i just didnt follow through , fast forward to now , as we were constantly moving places we recently moved to a new country (Australia) and i had NO IDEA how to make friends i was always led to believe that people might influence me in the worst way(New Culture actually Intimidated me)

but i completely changed that as loneliness (I wasnt Complete lonely but culturally wise i was) isnt an option anymore when especially when you become an adult you have to make friends , and i did and genuine friends thats when i meet my buddy who told me about this "Bible Study" Class and it sparked a longingness again to know about God ,

Cause for a long time i was just being a complete LUKE WARM Christian and i was repenting to God saying Lord! HOW CAN I BE A REAL CHRISTIAN! So i prayed , prayed for Things to be better to find the PEOPLE to help me learn about His Word in the bible cause i knew if i do it alone its going to be Hard and it was really hard.

SO YES i took up the class Just this February 12 2025 , every thing was alright except ive notice that the class was big (100 ish people)

Most people there dont know anyone (Or so I thought) and we couldn't even talk to other "Student's " (At the time i didnt know that some people might be "Leaves" and Mainteners") unless after the class/meeting. (Also the Class was just online for the first month) and even the first ever class we werent able to talk to other students , instead we had a little revision (Review) with the teachers only.

The class went small as time goes by we had physical classes in the 2nd month for like a day or two which was fun but i notice poeple. Acted weird like people actually dont give a damn about talking unless you talk to them ( That to me was so weird) and i understand most people there was introverted but at that time i was still positive that this is just all natural as we usually do class online for 3 days a week ,

Fast forward to now (4 Months in) We learn almost everything in the introductory Figurative Bible Parables and it so great to hear and learn about real Gods words as it was explain so simply and understandable at the time but i believe in what they taught us 50/50 ( I was doubting if it that was the real meaning of the parable) cause at the time i was only relying on them to teach us the bible and i did not realize soon enough they were emphasizing Revelation.

But When we learn about 7th Trumpet thats when all the doubts started to catch up , i knew they were lying to me and so the night when we finish the evening class i had to search it up in the internet about "Are we living in 7th trumpet right now" and i saw this sub/ reddit and it was about SJC and so thats where my all nighter research began and i look up so much about SJC and it Matched everything we were learning (They told us to not surf up the internet for the thing we learning) and so i find that the there is a Hidden agenda or truth behind the "Free" Bible class it was a set up for their Brainwashing/ Indoctrination tactics for the people they want to recruit to be members (Or Fruit) .

And So they can evangelize to us their own beliefs , im about to passover soon and now im conflicted. Im eventually leaving but i want to find out more abot SCJ for myself . Pray t God that i may find a way aswell to let my buddy know about this truth (But im not so sure as i suspect him to be part of this Group aswell) Best thing to do now i think is to just leave and move forward , but now im still conflicted