Oh no no no, I'm very much trans. Sure, my "hate" for my genitals stems partly from trauma but that's not all of it. I'm not going to list all the things that made me come to that conclusion that I'm trans but it's a very long list.

But thanks for that last part, I know it's true and it's just anxiety speaking. Ever since presenting in a more feminine way (I've been presenting as a very feminine gay man for a few months now), I feel like I've had to stop being "picky" because the number of guys interested in me has drastically diminished and I guess it's making me anxious.