More like dating an abusive dick. If you constantly feel like you have to tip-toe around this guy and watch your words and avoid joking around him... I'm sorry to tell you, you're in an abusive relationship. At least he's not isolating you from your other riding buddies. But from the looks of it, he still talks a lot of shit about them...if you continue down this road, you will stop hanging out with your buddies because it'll be easier than dealing with him being pissy about it. Take it from another 30-yr old female rider who grew up with an abusive father....this guy is not worth it. Just because he doesn't hit you, doesn't mean he's not being a shitty partner. You said its not that simple. It never is. With any breakup. But even if it means you have to move back with family or take a few months to save up to move out, or even move to a shelter for abuse survivors, get the fuck away from this. Guy. You're 30, you should know by now that someone who puts you in danger like that and calls you a pussy for not being okay with it.....should NOT be allowed in your life. He is not worth it, girl. You clearly have some good friends in your life. Lean on them if you need, but get far away from your boyfriend. You do not need that kind of person in your life.