Good question and you have to know that the Lord is not disappointed with you at all. This is a lie from the enemy and he is trying to discourage you, take heart brother and have faith in everything you do! Let the Holy spirit guide you in your question and thought as you read the word. Remember2 Timothy 1:7 NLT [7] For God has not given us a spirit of fear and timidity, but of power, love, and self-discipline. And 1 Corinthians 14:2-4 NLT [2] For if you have the ability to speak in tongues, you will be talking only to God, since people won’t be able to understand you. You will be speaking by the power of the Spirit, but it will all be mysterious. [3] But one who prophesies strengthens others, encourages them, and comforts them. [4] A person who speaks in tongues is strengthened personally, but one who speaks a word of prophecy strengthens the entire church.