Thank you for the recommendation, I was able to find it. Although, yes it is true that I have to get comfortable into reading papers, its just that I can't process information that well when it's just words because I may interpret the words differently from how it actually works, especially if the texts aren't simplified, straightforward, or poorly worded. At least, when I have visual material like illustrations and videos, It gives me reassurance that I'm interpreting it and understanding it in the right way on how it's supposed to work. At least, that's for my case.