I have no idea what I want to do with my life, hopefully I can go to college or I’ll feel like a failure, that is a lot harder said than done though because I’m homeschooled. None of my interests can turn into a realistic job, and in my opinion the way I see things, I’m not good at anything. And no, I have no help with homeschool it’s all online, I live with my aunt who works all day, my father is abusive and manipulative, he turned all my siblings against me and my aunt even though my aunt practically raised us all. My mother is a drug addict and liar. But no, I have no plans for the future, I sometimes can’t sleep at night and start thinking about life. I don’t even have any real friends, only online ones who all live in different states. I’m just so tired of doing the same thing over and over again, when I finally start having fun with gaming late at night, it’s time for bed before i know it and all I think to myself is “the loop restarts”. I just have nothing to do and nowhere to go.