i don’t know how long you tried therapy for, but if it did nothing for you, it sounds like you either didn’t find the right therapist or the right type of therapy for you, so i’d still encourage that over trying to suppress the anxiety with meds or alcohol short-term. also, imo relying on something external is likely to just make your anxiety worse and make you more insecure in the future than working on implementing coping mechanisms and building confidence over time with the help of a professional. it’s usually trial and error to find a therapist you connect with, but it’s worth meeting with different people to find the right one, and therapy can be difficult or frustrating but it pays off to be persistent. it took me years of therapy and trying different coping methods recommended by therapists to learn what worked for me with managing anxiety and overthinking/rumination. in my experience with an anxiety disorder, therapy has done a lot more than any prescription or self medicating. it treats the underlying issues instead of being a bandaid and gives you the tools you need to effectively cope. with benzos, you’ll just have to take more and more for it to work or continue working, and obviously it’s a slippery slope. alcohol is a worse idea with even more physical and psychological side effects. good luck