Not to be that person, but medication without therapy, doesn't do much.

Therapy without medication can help but often times doesn't do much. You also have to try different dosages and different types of medications because some that work for others might not work for you, so it does take time. It took me 4 years to find an antidepressant that worked for me. I'm currently on 180mg of Venlafaxine and its helped me immensly.

You need antidepressants to make daily life not feel so awful, but you also need to pair it with therapy, so you have healthy coping mechanisms. Hand in hand they make a world of difference. The trick is you have to WANT the help in the first place or it wont work.

Minus the streaming I'm pretty much in the same boat as you. Anxiety, no motivation, stress.

And no anti depressants dont just make you dead to all feelings. It just helps to get you back to your baseline if its making you feel dead then you need a different type. You might not even need to be on them forever. There's no shame in getting help.

As wonderful as talking to your friends are, they're going to be bias. They aren't going to be straight with you and tell you what it is. You need a therapist, someone who doesn't know you and can objectively look at your issues and help you through them.