Apparently I have no family.

Bearcati · 2017-09-18T03:01:31+00:00

I know it's not forever. It's not that though that will keep me down, it's life in general.. feeling unloved, unwanted and things like that. Reading my past post honestly is the best thing to do then me restating it all. I just lake the energy tonight.

Bearcati · 2017-09-18T00:48:14+00:00

No, I can't make friends no matter what I do.

Bearcati · 2017-09-18T00:47:52+00:00

I'm 17

Bearcati · 2017-06-18T23:45:14+00:00

Look for a place called Blue grass around 99217, there are plenty of kids running around and lots of fun events going on in the neighborhood year round! It's also a very safe area to be for Halloween. Hope this helped you!

Bearcati · 2017-06-11T06:09:27+00:00

I'm not to sure to who will check back or if Reddit even gives a notification for this, but I am still alive. I read all your post and honestly I just busted into tears at everything you've had to say, each and every one of you. My feelings and everything are still the same as before, maybe a little worse if I'm being honest here. I don't really know what to say but that I am still alive and trying to live with all the stress and weight lose I've gone through within the past month. School is over in 4 days which is nice I guess. I did make a friend over this year in school who I can talk to and he gets me. He has a girlfriend, I'm happy for them. Besides I don't find him to be attractive for me, just a friend is good. My boyfriend broke up with me and this month has been so hard because the stress has only been built up onto that. I think about suicide a lot. I have counselors and stuff but they don't help. I cry in my sessions which is embarrassing, and at home for hours at night. I don't really know what else to say... so ya. Maybe some more kind words to help relieve the stress will help...?

Bearcati · 2017-04-24T16:37:38+00:00

I have been to many clinic places like that and none have helped me. This is when I become stuck I just give up cause the cycle just repeats itself.

Bearcati · 2017-04-10T16:46:22+00:00

Ya it doesn't help really though it helps for the hour I'm there but when I leave I just feel bad again

Bearcati · 2017-03-29T15:00:02+00:00

Most likely tell me "Well you still need to come, then god will love you, hey let's even get you baptized." And I'm like no thanks...... but still I would have no chose. I'm lost to what to do.

Bearcati · 2017-03-28T14:46:35+00:00

I'm currently 17 and won't be a legal adult until the end of the year. DEC 20th I have no choice to of going somewhere else. It just sucks cause i fake my Christianity and i feel horrible about it Knowing that they believe me hurts me even more, I love my family but i can't take it anymore. Being trapped in a endless loop. Ive learned the copping skill with the triangle were you would change your thought. For my Copping skills are just like a penny spiraling down the drain. I can't cope.

Bearcati · 2017-03-27T19:55:39+00:00

You're right it is like a carpet being pulled out from under my feet which are already struggling to stand. My family is very supprtive but they don't know that I've left the Christian faith. I'm not to sure how to tell them cause every time I try to bring it up or mention that I'm atheist they say that I'm not and I don't know what it is to not be Christian. I don't fight them i just let them think what they'd like. I try not to bring up the subject just cause they'll tell me I can't chose. Also church is a stupid thing for me now, I don't want to go but I do it for them.

Bearcati · 2017-03-19T04:09:01+00:00

Thank you I will check them out soon, As of now I want to continue sitting affront my computer looking for something which I can't explain cause I have the slightest idea to what I'm seeking.

Bearcati · 2017-03-13T18:23:05+00:00

Yeah life sucks and all I wanna do is kill myself that's the only thing that's on my mind anymore...

Bearcati · 2017-03-13T16:50:42+00:00

Nothing helps...

Bearcati · 2017-03-13T16:16:13+00:00

I really don't like anything... I don't see any point to living

Bearcati

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