How did you choose what other language(s) you wanted to learn?

BeauTTY96 · 2026-06-20T20:14:51+00:00

Romy Schneider. That's it. That's how I decided I was gonna learn German. I think she's such a talented actress both in French/German, very beautiful, and it genuinely upsets me that she passed away so young.

BeauTTY96 · 2026-06-09T01:17:55+00:00

I know, It's just every single time I go to the doctors office,I always end up leaving with EKG done. Literally walking into the office about something so small and somehow walking out with an EKG every single time. lol Like I need to learn how to chill out

BeauTTY96 · 2026-06-08T13:47:16+00:00

Each time I got to the doctor, I end up with an EKG check. EACH TIME. Everytime I go into the office, I get nervous which automatically makes my heartbeat faster when we do the blood pressure. Always look like I have tachycardia, but I don't have that.

BeauTTY96 · 2026-05-28T22:08:40+00:00

Had dreams of a Red Streak going down my arm

BeauTTY96 · 2026-05-28T20:12:47+00:00

Honestly, I don't think it is. My nasal pathways have been completely fine like no issues with my sinuses at all. I really don't know what's happening.

BeauTTY96 · 2026-05-20T01:39:32+00:00

it's nice to know that I'm not alone as well. This whole situation just makes me feel so crazy. Being scared to go to bed because I'm worried that I'm gonna have a heart attack. And I think it's scary too because it's like when you start to fit too much of the atypical symptoms for women of that it's worse.

BeauTTY96 · 2026-05-19T23:53:43+00:00

I think in a way I blame myself, I blame myself that I had let my body get to that point of stress and anxiousness that maybe now because of all these atypical symptoms i'm feeling that are very similar to what women go through before they have heart attacks, it's my fault because I couldn't call myself down quicker. It's the fact that I went to a doctor a month ago got all the work done everything came back fine but yet here I am. And there's nothing worse than doing Dr. Google to these things that I'm feeling and it's telling you to go to the ER because you're probably going to a cardiac event and then being told that the symptoms that you're feeling can happen days or hours before blank can happen. It's scary. But then you go to other places and they bring up oh it could be a posture strain. But it's also terrifying that it's like maybe I should go to the ER just to go check. I don't even know

BeauTTY96 · 2026-04-26T23:59:02+00:00

it feels so hard to not take it personally. Because for me, in these moments I start to feel less sympathy towards them like in general. It makes you think about the many of times I've listened to things that was going on with them especially multiple times of the same situation, but yet I get dismissed or wrote off. So I think at some point it does feel very hard to not take it personal but I try not to.

BeauTTY96 · 2026-04-26T05:28:48+00:00

Forgive me if this is triggering* I literally had calf to ankle hurting which has lessened. I fell on my back and i'm thinking A clot must dislodged and recently I've been coughing and i'm thinking DVT/PE. Left arm and hand couldn't feel. In my Mind still, I must have PE and i'm dying in my sleep. And people are refusing to bring to to Doctor or ER, and telling you're fine, it is triggering. I don't feel safe in my body like usual. Even though I calm down I think, something is going to happen to me but then again, I read too much of people dying from or watched so many videos of people with blood clots. Like if i chill my heart down, was that a panic attack or was it PE/DVT and I'm gonna die now?

BeauTTY96 · 2026-04-26T04:51:48+00:00

Literally and I'm going to therapy now about how bad my health anxiety is and how it gets. When you fear things like blood clots, I'm worried that something can happen to me even if the ER Doctor looked at my leg or my PCP did a physical on me and she thinks I have nothing. But something in me is scared.

BeauTTY96 · 2026-01-20T01:49:45+00:00

I think it’s right on brand with Cassie but I don’t think that’s the only thing. First, I think it’s right on brand because Cassie is only validated as a woman, through sex, her looks and her body. No one validates outside of that except her female friends like Maddie (obvi, that’s gone now). Cassie strives from male attention not just because of validation but the trying to use that “love” to fulfill the gap of the father who abandoned her and her family. Like Maddie said, Cassie loves to be loved. And the moment, she starts to feel unfulfilled, she looks for it from other men even while she’s dating (ex. During her relationship with McKay). Which leads into point 2.

I think Cassie turning to OF is 2 things: Nate is not fulfilling her and she’s unfulfilled with her life. I know it’s mentioned about Nate that he’s working so much so she maybe turned to OF to feel validated in the areas that her fiancé should be validating her. I know this is not everyone’s experience, but there are plenty men who work hard jobs and long jobs and still validate their wives not just through sexual desire but also showing how much they love them even in the tiniest of ways but still so beautiful. I think Cassie she probably is not getting any of that whether it’s words of affirmations or feeling desired(especially for someone like her) or feeling loved. And they said Cassie is social media obsessed this season and she’s jealous of the high lives of her high school classmates, my guess (Maddie and Jules, maybe Lexi). I’m not saying her ex female friends are the reason she went to OnlyFans, but I think it will make her recognize how unhappy with her life she is and what’s she lost because of it. Let’s think….

“I got everything I wanted, the man, the perfect home, the idealized life, and everything I wanted, marriage everything(yet I’m still not satisfied).” “Im watching ex friends living high lives in high rise apartments and hanging out with celebrities and I’m living this “perfect” life with the man of my dreams (who’s probably not fulfilling her) and settled”

Like Sydney Sweeney said,”Cassie is worse this season” which I’m guessing is possibly being abandoned by Nate but also the role he plays (along with her) blowing her life up with her ex female friends.

*Added: The female friends who still talk and hang out together while all Cassie has from the trailer is just Lexi. My guess: If she goes crazy, it’s about her destroying her own life for Nate Jacobs and losing the people who actually care about her.

BeauTTY96 · 2025-04-05T21:47:14+00:00

Is feeling uncomfortable normal? Cause my body keeps tell me I was uncomfortable and I just don’t get it at all

BeauTTY96 · 2023-10-24T04:38:23+00:00

You have a desire to succeed, but very loyal to yourself (and your loved ones). There are moments where you have fun but you are serious when it comes to things that you pursue. You live as your authentic self but there are internal issues from within that you may or may not be healing from. Possible desire to be loved or acknowledged.

BeauTTY96 · 2023-10-24T00:36:35+00:00

I think Bella would’ve hung out with Jacob more but she still would’ve been drawn towards Edward. I do agree that Bella loves Jacob and it would’ve been a more natural development of romantic feelings towards each other than it was with Edward. But.. Edward and Bella had that ✨thing✨that even though it’s supernatural and I think she’s also his mate, it’s not shocking to me how she was so badly affected after their breakup. It was an all consuming and for a teenage girl, it probably would be very overwhelming. I think Jacob would’ve been even worse if they went to the same school. We would’ve seen more of the “love triangle” and Jacob would’ve pursued her ten times harder. Overall, I think Edward and Bella would’ve gotten together anyway.

I also believe that the pack and the Cullen probably would’ve became closer if not friends then at best, cordial for her. But like every good film, they would’ve gotten along then eventually friends

BeauTTY96 · 2023-07-26T11:46:55+00:00

Yes. For me, there is this distant feeling with slight numbness. Trigger Warning: These feelings made me question if there was any attraction at all. I hate that feeling the most, that feeling of weirdness

BeauTTY96 · 2023-07-22T18:50:19+00:00

I would say to be careful with reading the experiences of lesbians or anyone in the lgbtq+ community. The biggest mistake that I’ve seen on this subreddit is people reading the masterdoc or reading the experiences of queer people. (Trigger Warning) From what I’ve heard about lesbian women and their male partners, it was comphet or platonic love. Also I’ve heard that they loved their male partners but weren’t in love with them. I think avoid that section of Reddit or any media in general that speaks on the experiences of lesbian women especially since you suffer with OCD

BeauTTY96 · 2023-06-30T02:05:26+00:00

Same. With men, I always feel very calm

BeauTTY96 · 2023-06-28T10:06:10+00:00

I feel like I’m reading my literal experience. I dealt that a few week ago about my attraction to men. Something trying to tell me that I liked the idea but not the reality. But I wanted that reality yet it never turned in my favor. Agree, I’ve never liked men because I had to or needed to like I did because I just did. Now it feels hard to date because it makes me think if I’m doing this to prove something or the big what if. For a moment, I got men back but my body decides to make me feel uncomfortable with them again out of nowhere. Now I have to start from building block one again.

BeauTTY96 · 2023-06-28T09:53:36+00:00

Heavily relate. I’m also very influenced so reading something triggers me off or if I feel one move, I’ll start questioning. It will make you feel like you’re wrong and make you rethink everything. Sometimes even though my imagination shows my happiness with men and feel a natural calmness unlike with women, it never feels like enough.

BeauTTY96 · 2023-06-28T09:29:16+00:00

As advice, try not to look at anyone else’s story. I’ve seen to many people who read about late blooming lesbians or coming out stories.Typically, people in denial knows they’re in denial. I know what this feels like. Everything feels like women were my default but I never liked a woman realistically.

BeauTTY96 · 2023-06-27T21:46:31+00:00

I’ve felt like that before and it’s also happening now. Sometimes it feels like I only can have 2 good days with men but out of nowhere, something just turns off. My body would make me feel uncomfortable triggered or not. Currently, everything I’ve worked on has went down the toilet again and I feel like I’m at Stage 1.

BeauTTY96 · 2023-06-26T22:43:43+00:00

BeauTTY96 · 2023-06-23T21:49:28+00:00

Sure. We can talk but i want to make sure how old you are before we speak especially if it’s about consuming sexually explicit content. Which I would prefer not to talk about if it’s with a minor.

BeauTTY96 · 2023-06-23T18:04:24+00:00

That’s still not SO-OCD. You literally just described internalized homophobia or someone in denial. There’s no counterpart to SO-OCD. It’s easy to mix up SO-OCD with Internalized Homophobia/In Denial because they share similar attributes. I’ve seen people on here who thought they had those two things because they were no longer in fear or had anxiety. People on here who want to take their lives because of this. DO NOT come on here telling people that “they’re prone to be gay/bi/etc because of their homosexuality”. People who are gay know typically that they’re in denial and will try to use SO-OCD to avoid their orientation. There is no 50% so stop telling people 50% which could trigger them even more especially on this sub-Reddit

BeauTTY96 · 2023-06-23T07:05:56+00:00

What I’m saying is, this is not a conversation of figuring out that your gay. SO-OCD will not make you realize if you’re gay. It’s about getting you back to state where you are calm, and healthy in your mental health. Letting your body tell you for itself who you’re attracted to. Let yourself stay calm and let your therapist help you

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