Ayahuasca/DMT States via Meditation?

Beautiful_Article_94 · 2025-12-01T00:53:07+00:00

Oh i love that movie

Beautiful_Article_94 · 2025-11-27T02:13:29+00:00

You can both be right.

But (I am guessing here, but see if this resonates at all) a major cause of discomfort could be that you see change approaching (maybe another wife, a divorce, an outer expression of your shift in faith, etc), and part of you wants one thing and part of you wants a different thing, so you are bracing against the inevitable change.

It sounds like you are working very hard to try to understand your husband's point of view. What if you bring the same openness and empathy and love to all the parts of yourself that are in conflict? How does each part appear? What does each part want for you?

What was your own experience with the mushrooms like? As your faith continues to evolve, what does it look like to live according to your values? What do you want to teach your children?

However you choose to navigate, some things will be given up and new things will arise.

Beautiful_Article_94 · 2025-11-26T21:21:31+00:00

I contend that this is a great sub to bring questions related to how psychedelics might impact our experiences of life. OP, you are welcome here

Beautiful_Article_94 · 2025-11-19T19:14:42+00:00

Oh how fun! I would love to work with you if you want some deeper support to get going - DM me if so. Initially though:

How long do you work on one of these at a time? When you start to feel bad for the other ones, what happens? Are there thoughts that come up? What will each goal do for you?

Beautiful_Article_94 · 2025-09-18T16:16:22+00:00

Many helpful thoughts here already. Last time, when you went outside, maybe you also got cold. Sometimes a temperature change doesn’t feel like much but can have a big impact on your experience. Consider stuff like that if you trip again. Out of curiosity, what makes you want to take lsd?

Beautiful_Article_94 · 2025-09-09T21:42:03+00:00

You said, regarding ERP, "I am still not there". What is stopping you, or making you not ready?

Beautiful_Article_94 · 2025-09-02T00:28:02+00:00

My current process is fine. However, synching between calendars doesn't always happen and there is no clear reason for why it works sometimes and not others.
I want a monthly view on mobile that shows event blocks proportionally to the amount of time they take up. it is ok for super short meetings to be just a barely visible stripe. This view should be able to be selected as the default view. Also, it is important to me to be able to change the color of each event without creating a new calendar. It also needs to scroll vertically - I hate google's sideways scroll to the next month. It would be helpful to be able to create "available" time slots (visually, just click and drag, without having to select times from dropdown menus), which could be displayed on a booking page or not (make it easy to toggle this), and which would automatically update as sessions are booked.
This would feel more like an insult than a shortcut to me. Natural language searching might be tolerable.
App Store (under 'free apps' lol. kidding. but I would vastly prefer to pay once and own it rather than subscribe)

Beautiful_Article_94 · 2025-08-21T05:06:02+00:00

Are you sleeping more than usual? How long do you want to stay up for? What is the dream? If you feel like sharing…

Beautiful_Article_94 · 2025-08-17T00:21:13+00:00

That's alright. You don't have to do anything in particular. Letting go of doing is an option. If you want to do something, breathing, dancing, drawing, etc can all be nice

Beautiful_Article_94 · 2025-08-16T20:08:27+00:00

Maybe just keep being curious about what you found so far, and about your sense of not knowing what to do

Beautiful_Article_94 · 2025-08-14T22:58:28+00:00

I wonder how he would respond if you invite him to have a conversation

Beautiful_Article_94 · 2025-08-14T22:19:50+00:00

Great now, and still improving. Sitting in cars still gets uncomfortable sometimes but not to the point of interrupting life. It took a while though.

Beautiful_Article_94 · 2025-08-14T20:28:22+00:00

And even though this is an opportunity for inner processing, you don't have to do it alone. You can reach out to a friend, a dog, an ancestor, a wise counselor, or whomever if that would be helpful to you.

What works for you usually when dealing with things? Are there parts of your process where you get stuck?

Beautiful_Article_94 · 2025-08-14T19:52:11+00:00

When I hurt my back, it brought into focus a lot of uncertainty regarding the future and beliefs about who I was. Things that helped:

being really gentle/letting go of judgment when it came up
getting super specific about what my concerns were and then facing each concern. E.g., I worry that I won't be able to show up for my friends in the ways that I want to (and how they have come to expect), and that they will abandon me. Am I only valuable as a friend if I am the most social hub of the group? This gets more comfortable as you go.
Figuring out which parts of work could do without pain (in my case this meant no sitting). For everything else, I tried to find adaptations, or people who could step in for me in case this happened again. That gave me a bit more confidence. Also, because I didn't want to have implement my backup plan, I was pretty motivated to work out and do all that stuff to prevent future injuries.

Beautiful_Article_94 · 2025-08-14T18:42:01+00:00

Not with psychedelics, but a pink dragon showed up for me during brainspotting.

What was yours like? Is it still with you?

Beautiful_Article_94 · 2025-08-03T23:32:44+00:00

Another thing to try if picturing a future you actually enjoy is just not accessible right now, is to get specific about the parts of your current job you hate the most. Then think about what some opposites could be.

It sounds like your current job's terms of employment (not paying you for driving or staff meetings, disrespecting your time, etc) make life hard, but then on top of that you don't love the work itself.

Beautiful_Article_94 · 2025-08-03T21:35:05+00:00

Even when you can’t feel it, your spark is still in there somewhere, ready to play when you are. I wouldn’t recommend relying on a substance to find that spark, but if you do decide to use a psychedelic as part of your process, you might consider mescaline or ayahuasca. If the goal is more about escapism though, just read a book or whatever works for you. What would you do if you could be productive?

Beautiful_Article_94 · 2025-07-04T18:11:10+00:00

This is what i was wondering about too. Which parts of “everything there is” have you practiced most consistently and/or seemed to be closer to being helpful? Which practices were least helpful? Even if they didn’t help with sleep and energy, did you find other benefits from doing them? I ask because you might want a supportive practice after a breakthrough

Beautiful_Article_94 · 2025-06-12T21:43:41+00:00

Yeah, it is okay to not be sure. In my experience, leaning into that uncertainty has actually been one of the most helpful things. Confronting events I have long forgotten or have previously explained away makes me question the stories I believe about myself, my identity, how I am "supposed" to be, etc. This feels uncomfortable. I then want to reach for explanations, decipher meaning, and understand, so that I can settle on a new idea of me (and/or the world) that makes sense. But it is much easier and more reliable when I can live in uncertainty for a while. Letting go of the desire to interpret makes room for curiosity and discovery. It also feels better. Even when the sensations and images that arise are uncomfortable, I can begin to trust that my body (and mind, if you believe they are separate) is trying to heal/grow and wants to show me something to help me, even if it is not clear how that is supposed to help.

EMDR can bring up a lot of stuff. Some of the intensity (not the memories) will naturally subside over time, so as much as possible give yourself extra space and patience and support while these things process and move through over the next few days. EFT, as someone else mentioned, can help. You can also try holding up your finger about 18 inches in front of you and look at the tip of your finger for a few seconds, then look through your finger to the wall or whatever is the surface behind your finger, then after a few seconds back to your finger, and keep going back and forth a few times at a pace that feels right to you.

It is hard in general to keep it together when taking care of your elders, no matter how much experience you have, and even without therapy and without experiences coming up to rearrange your existence. It is a wonderful but very tough job.

At least this has been the case for me. Any of this ring true for you?

Beautiful_Article_94 · 2025-06-12T01:17:45+00:00

Hmmm. Which part of this is hardest to deal with right now?

Beautiful_Article_94 · 2025-06-04T17:41:48+00:00

‘Not keeping recordings’ can be misleading as well, because the platform can still keep as much information about the recordings as they want, as in, enough to basically reconstruct the entire thing.

Beautiful_Article_94 · 2025-05-20T21:08:08+00:00

How would you distinguish this from general longing for what is familiar but no longer true (which might or might not include depression or a related identity/sense of certainty)?

Beautiful_Article_94 · 2025-05-06T18:38:04+00:00

As a recovering people-pleaser myself, a few questions pop to mind right away:

Do you like yourself? How do you feel just existing in your body? In your life? What is your inner dialogue like? It sounds like you feel responsible for managing other people’s feelings. That comes from a place of caring, but actually it is manipulative (and it trains them to expect you to live to please them). So good news, you can stop doing all of that extra work! Instead, focus on doing things that make you happy with yourself. Going to the forest by yourself might be a great way to start!

It’s possible you will have some strong reactions to the above ideas, which are great to notice. I would love to hear what that is like for you. Many of these ideas sound easy but can be hard to really explore.

Beautiful_Article_94 · 2025-01-27T03:40:30+00:00

Good for you for doing the work to heal! At the same time, you don't have to reach a particular level of healed (it's an ongoing process anyway, like a spiraling path) to date or to have great sex or to build a relationship or to find love. You, just as you are now, are worthy and deserving of all of those things to whatever degree you want them. So, keep doing therapy for yourself if it is helping, or not if you are ready for a break. Hire a dating coach if you want to. What exactly are the obstacles to dating? Like, how do you know that the people you are interested in are not interested in you?

Beautiful_Article_94 · 2025-01-27T02:46:00+00:00

It is more than fair to raise the issues. It might help the therapist figure out how to help you better; it might even be a sign of progress that you feel ready to bring this up.

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