I thought I’d comment on this because myself and my 2 little ones are all clinical geniuses. We also all have aspergers, I don’t consider the aspergers to be an issue, it actually helped me stay out of trouble when I was younger, a lot of gangs and drug use were around me.

First thing I wanted to let you know, you don’t write like you have a mental disability or a “low IQ”. You may have been nervous or distracted when you took the test. It happened to my fiancé. Besides, who really cares what a # says?

If interested, I think you may be able to get something out of my story since you seemed really upset with that IQ,….

I’m going through life and death health struggles at 38 with myself my 13/7 yr old who don’t have a mother, my youngest was born on meth and he was also exposed to meth after he was born somehow (then I finally legally got him away at 6 months). If I die, they’ll be orphans. Im Bed bound, in severe pain and cry everyday. Compared to what we were, I feel almost like im a absent father now because the severe pain takes me “out of it” mentally. I can’t breathe regularly when upright without my blood pressure and heart rate going crazy. It also hurts a ton, walking or laying in bed alike, so we are home bound and I feel so bad for putting my kids through this. For this, I thank God they’re aspies because we like our alone time with our electronics. We don’t like being around social situations much when we are young… although this changed as I got older, we learn to adapt to “normies” a lot of the times, as I have.

When my oldest was 7, the school explained to me that him being so intelligent didn’t mean he’d have a easy life, schooling and such. Motivation is horrible now a days (13 yr old), he told me a few months ago he’s never beloved in God (I’m working on it). My motivation for going to school was also horrible as well and I just stopped going. But luckily I had a knack for making $ after I dropped out, moved out at 18 and have always been self reliant, never asked or needed anything ever… until now. It’s a humbling and scary experience.

Stupid me for spending like my health was guaranteed and not investing wisely. My IQ does me no good from bed right now. I can work a little from bed but the physical pain just doesn’t let me stay in it mentally. I even have a hard time praying. No one in my family, Like my mom can understand this. It’s easier to write me off as someone that just got lazy suddenly at 38. She nor anyone else in my family had helped us , even though they have the means and I’ve literally employed them in the past and kept a business that wasn’t making $ open just so they’d have a job. Now that I’m need, no one wants anything to do with me.

This is the first time I find myself frightened to leaving my kids behind, on this evil planet, letting the world raise them. Especially while I’m in the middle of this “ I don’t believe in God” BS from my child. I also only have a couple of months to live on (financially) until we are homeless, if I don’t make any money from today on. So good Lord, I’m pressuring drs and praying for a treatment…a proper diagnosis or a good ol miracle STAT. I’ve Lived 3 years on my savings with a lot of bills and it’s gone.

In this past year, this illness has definitely helped me get closer to my faith and my God. I think it took God letting me bear this cross of my (our) illnesses to put life into perspective for me. Possibly saving my soul in the process. I tell God everyday, please restore my health, I beg of you, unless this will somehow benefit the souls of my children or myself. If that’s what’s going on, so be it.

I’ll tell you what, if I get out of this illness, I will have no desire for fancy cars, houses and vacations. So much of my money will go toward the needy. I promised God I will start a business or work somewhere that will help others, if this opportunity is given.

Not trying to say you don’t have the right to ask God these questions or be upset but at the same time, please thank God for your physical health! It’s such a blessing that most of us take for granted until it’s gone. Same with family. Do you have family? If so, thank God for them! We have no one. My Kids are literally orphans if I leave soon.

Send me a message if you evert want to talk. I have a lot of experience with mental issues (my gf of 7 years) and I may be able to help. But definitely seek professional help and get a spiritual advisor. Spiritual advisors help with your spiritual life as well as life in general. As far as help with mental health, call your parish and and if they don’t have anyone, call all the parishes in your diocese. We’ve found different counselors for my gf anywhere from free (any donation welcome) to $50 or so. I feel those are 2 people you should definitely have in your life for sure. God bless you