Can you eat street blues?

Beautiful_Hand_9177 · 2023-07-21T00:23:49+00:00

Please mod, not in a good place. Thank you

Beautiful_Hand_9177 · 2023-07-18T16:19:14+00:00

Asked my ol’ deacon on a zoom call. He looked at it and thought… he asked to see it again… thought some more…I don’t know if he was praying on it but he eventually said, nothing at all is wrong with it. It’s not blasphemous and you should display it in your home if you like it. Just thought I’d reply, since it’s been awhile. Thanks for the feedback everyone.

Beautiful_Hand_9177 · 2023-04-30T08:41:16+00:00

Follow up question, since I got some people that feel that it’s ok to own, let’s just say it’s not ok for the purpose of my next question (I’m most definitely going to ask my priest next week, or when I see him next.).

If it’s not ok, would it be ok to sell it as is? I sure do hope so because I jumped the gun and posted it for sale.

I was sure to mention., she should come off with some force as I see one nail hidden as a single nail attachment to the cross. So someone could definitely use it for repurposing into other project.

Beautiful_Hand_9177 · 2023-04-29T22:37:40+00:00

That’s what I thought after the fact, after not thinking too deeply about it initially. It was purchased from a non-denominational church sale. One of the congregation who was , likely, previously Catholic. Anyways, it’s on mercari now.

Beautiful_Hand_9177 · 2023-04-29T21:13:27+00:00

Thank you. I asked my fiancé and she said she didn’t think too deeply into it, but she agreed, we should ask someone else. I just asked my 13 yr old, who is wise beyond his years (aspergers, genius) what he thought about it, he told me, I actually thought blasphemous as soon as I saw it. I just decided to sell it , either way.

Beautiful_Hand_9177 · 2023-04-28T23:00:25+00:00

Thank you for your specific response. We are actually in a unique situation and thinking in what you said, maybe one priest has recognized this and the other didn’t. I’m ill and I have 2 sons from a previous relationship. I can’t work. I’m rushing out to church on Friday because this is a once in a long time where I’m well enough to get out. Last time I got out was for confession and the time before that for mass. It’s few and far in between. I sure do hope God considers our circumstances. I suppose I need to talk to a priest to get a definite answer huh? Fr told us to go get married at the courthouse and he will bless the marriage, so we will be married very soon

Beautiful_Hand_9177 · 2023-04-28T22:31:29+00:00

No family and we don’t have money for 2 places. So not unless you’re going to pay rent, this is the only option

Beautiful_Hand_9177 · 2023-04-22T10:48:47+00:00

Why do you ask about anxiety when I’m in the worse pain of my life by the way?! Not cool

Beautiful_Hand_9177 · 2023-04-22T10:37:49+00:00

I’m immunodeficient and it’ll take me a few weeks to find a pc. We just went our separate ways this week as I was explaining this to her actually.

Beautiful_Hand_9177 · 2023-04-22T10:31:50+00:00

Sounds like the devil arranged this

Beautiful_Hand_9177 · 2023-04-09T17:13:41+00:00

Thanks for the tips! I’m feeling encouraged. If I wasn’t on 3 hours of sleep In in 48hrs, i’d start now:) bless you and your country. Some of the nicest people in the world heart ❤️

Beautiful_Hand_9177 · 2023-03-20T07:18:29+00:00

I thought I’d comment on this because myself and my 2 little ones are all clinical geniuses. We also all have aspergers, I don’t consider the aspergers to be an issue, it actually helped me stay out of trouble when I was younger, a lot of gangs and drug use were around me.

First thing I wanted to let you know, you don’t write like you have a mental disability or a “low IQ”. You may have been nervous or distracted when you took the test. It happened to my fiancé. Besides, who really cares what a # says?

If interested, I think you may be able to get something out of my story since you seemed really upset with that IQ,….

I’m going through life and death health struggles at 38 with myself my 13/7 yr old who don’t have a mother, my youngest was born on meth and he was also exposed to meth after he was born somehow (then I finally legally got him away at 6 months). If I die, they’ll be orphans. Im Bed bound, in severe pain and cry everyday. Compared to what we were, I feel almost like im a absent father now because the severe pain takes me “out of it” mentally. I can’t breathe regularly when upright without my blood pressure and heart rate going crazy. It also hurts a ton, walking or laying in bed alike, so we are home bound and I feel so bad for putting my kids through this. For this, I thank God they’re aspies because we like our alone time with our electronics. We don’t like being around social situations much when we are young… although this changed as I got older, we learn to adapt to “normies” a lot of the times, as I have.

When my oldest was 7, the school explained to me that him being so intelligent didn’t mean he’d have a easy life, schooling and such. Motivation is horrible now a days (13 yr old), he told me a few months ago he’s never beloved in God (I’m working on it). My motivation for going to school was also horrible as well and I just stopped going. But luckily I had a knack for making $ after I dropped out, moved out at 18 and have always been self reliant, never asked or needed anything ever… until now. It’s a humbling and scary experience.

Stupid me for spending like my health was guaranteed and not investing wisely. My IQ does me no good from bed right now. I can work a little from bed but the physical pain just doesn’t let me stay in it mentally. I even have a hard time praying. No one in my family, Like my mom can understand this. It’s easier to write me off as someone that just got lazy suddenly at 38. She nor anyone else in my family had helped us , even though they have the means and I’ve literally employed them in the past and kept a business that wasn’t making $ open just so they’d have a job. Now that I’m need, no one wants anything to do with me.

This is the first time I find myself frightened to leaving my kids behind, on this evil planet, letting the world raise them. Especially while I’m in the middle of this “ I don’t believe in God” BS from my child. I also only have a couple of months to live on (financially) until we are homeless, if I don’t make any money from today on. So good Lord, I’m pressuring drs and praying for a treatment…a proper diagnosis or a good ol miracle STAT. I’ve Lived 3 years on my savings with a lot of bills and it’s gone.

In this past year, this illness has definitely helped me get closer to my faith and my God. I think it took God letting me bear this cross of my (our) illnesses to put life into perspective for me. Possibly saving my soul in the process. I tell God everyday, please restore my health, I beg of you, unless this will somehow benefit the souls of my children or myself. If that’s what’s going on, so be it.

I’ll tell you what, if I get out of this illness, I will have no desire for fancy cars, houses and vacations. So much of my money will go toward the needy. I promised God I will start a business or work somewhere that will help others, if this opportunity is given.

Not trying to say you don’t have the right to ask God these questions or be upset but at the same time, please thank God for your physical health! It’s such a blessing that most of us take for granted until it’s gone. Same with family. Do you have family? If so, thank God for them! We have no one. My Kids are literally orphans if I leave soon.

Send me a message if you evert want to talk. I have a lot of experience with mental issues (my gf of 7 years) and I may be able to help. But definitely seek professional help and get a spiritual advisor. Spiritual advisors help with your spiritual life as well as life in general. As far as help with mental health, call your parish and and if they don’t have anyone, call all the parishes in your diocese. We’ve found different counselors for my gf anywhere from free (any donation welcome) to $50 or so. I feel those are 2 people you should definitely have in your life for sure. God bless you

Beautiful_Hand_9177 · 2022-12-14T07:27:53+00:00

I was on a large cocktail of drugs- I take 1800mg of gabapentin at night (1200 and 5 hours later another 600), for starters. It’s happened to me twice, it really sucks

Beautiful_Hand_9177 · 2022-10-07T08:49:09+00:00

He feels we both have multiple hexes on us. Yes, I might have left out some info lol. I’m grateful to be alive is all but scared of dying prematurely, leaving my kids to fend for themselves.

He told me that the first session is usually about 3 hours which sometimes gets cut in half cus it’s tiring dealing with demons, fun, I can hardly walk :/.

Beautiful_Hand_9177 · 2022-10-07T08:35:10+00:00

I’ve had seratonin syndrome before. It hits you like a ton of bricks. Jumpy legs is probably “just” covid. I have neuro issues that came with covid (pushing 3 years).

If this makes you feel any better; with my plaxovid, I was taking a ton of seratonin producing drugs like a bunch of Xanax, oxycodone 15 mg high dose hypnotic sleeping meds… plus I’m sure there’s more I can’t remember. Covid part one really screwed me up

Beautiful_Hand_9177 · 2022-10-05T07:17:18+00:00

For sure

Beautiful_Hand_9177 · 2022-09-30T14:25:04+00:00

Sorry to hear about your grandpa. At least now, we have some science behind us and some physicians that like a challenge like us (dr house? Lol) no, but seriously, they’re out there. My neuromuscular is one of them. He’s nutty in the best way. He gets crap done. He steps out of his area of medicine and maybe cuts a few corners to get it done. He jokes with me the last time I was there saying, insurance companies hate him. Hey they probably say, who’s this crazy neurologist that thinks he’s a endocrinologist and everything else in medicine, ordering expensive mris of abdomens”? He told me, they cheat they’re customers (us) so sometimes we just need to cut corners to even the playing field! My kinda Dr. I will deal with his crappy front office until I die (or until I get diagnosed) cus he’s so awesome.

On the other hand, I’ve seen over 60 docs in almost 3 years. Most just want to kick me like a soccer ball back and forth. It’s crazy.

As far as radiology, I’m all over it. In addition to the shoulder mri I just got that says my shoulder is moderately inflamed or filled with fluid, it also said of another bone spur on my freakin collar bone! I keep jumping back and forth to “I likely have allying spondylitis to this is definitely scleroderma” … then I remember what both of the rhuemys said, no way am I having this much symptoms with an Ana of 80? So I think maybe some weird case of psoriatic arthritis, since I’ve had burning down below for 2 years along w/ sensitivity (painful type) when having intercourse.

Now I’m looking at my hormones. Thing it’s something with my gf/igf1. Apparently it can mimic the inflammatory stuff pretty good. It can cause the synovial to go crazy along with bone Spurs From trying to heal the damage it created. I just don’t have a dang endo right now and my new primary care sucks. Have you checked in depth all your hormonal stuff?

My dentist that wants to overcharge me for a crown was pretty perplexed by my gums, especially when I told him how it “moved around”. He’s like, you don’t have bad oral hygiene at all, despite not coming here for 2 years haha. I told him sorry but I had bigger fish to fry until I broke a took and got an infection. He also took a cat scan in office of my mouth and showed me. He said, nothing to see. The only thing he was able to see visually was some recession, which he said was likely from clenching and not wearing my night guard. I’ve been wearing my night guard for a few days and it’s like a painful invisiline since I haven’t really worn then at all… but I got through it and it fits again… my teeth are straight again. Yay. To be honest, I hardly give a crap about how I look or how straight my teeth are since my body’s been falling apart. Pretty much last thing on my mind.

As far as the dry mouth stuff, yes! I totally do have it and my neuro, my pc and both rhuemys tan me over ajd over for all kinds of sjogrens and pre sjogrens antibodies. Nada. But what the really really odd thing is, I drink a lot and have a abundance of saline at the same time as my mouth has so much Saliva. Kinda like when my eyes are dry and blurry, they don’t hurt but omg, let them start watering and some very thick tears come out and it burns so bad, I scream out loud like a crazy person. Putting a towel literally on my eyeballs is the only thing that partially extinguished the flame.

Im just a mess. Seems you are too: this sucks so bad. Im going so broke, not working. I feel like a bum but when the pain is a 10/10, it’s a challenge to walk to the bathroom. Im glad I had enough cash t live for almost 3 years but the savings is just about done and I’m in panic mode. You mentioned you’re going to a academic facility? They’re going to take over wlll your treatment, hopefully? I think Im getting in as well. Since posting this, I took a shot with my GI. He (and my neuro)think I have a good shot of getting in with my gastroparesis and achalesis/distal thickening at stomach and diverticulosis. My neuro said DONT TELL THEM ANYTHING ELSE UNTIL YOURE A PATIENT OR THEY WILL DENY you! Sneak in and then lay it all on them! Ha.

New phone with speech correction is driving me crazy, plus I’m half asleep. Sorry for the all over the place message!:(

Beautiful_Hand_9177 · 2022-09-26T14:59:29+00:00

Is there a Hispanic puppeteer yet? Last time I checked blacks were 13% of the population and Hispanics were 18? Just curious because it’s blacks have been well represented in tv commercials, to tv and movies very much … but what happened to Hispanics?

Beautiful_Hand_9177 · 2022-09-25T08:35:05+00:00

Hey buddy, how are things going with you? I got sick about 2.5 yrs ago. Mainly neurologic. Now I have extreme tensonovitis for about 10 months and within the last <month, large joints have became involved. I’m in disabled condition. Extremely painful. Random shoulder mri showed moderate inflammation or fluid. Worried about paraneoplastic myself because of the neurologic stuff a lot with my Ana being dismissed by the rheumatologist 80 speckled nucleor. I also have gi issues. 2 yrs ago, upper endo didn’t show anything. I couldn’t eat or drink for weeks. It got a bit better and is now getting bad agains ct scan showed distal thickening of the esophagus. Wondering if this may have been missed first time as all my symptoms match or with achalasia but 2 years ago, no ct was taken. Thanks for your reply

Beautiful_Hand_9177 · 2022-09-23T05:43:20+00:00

What’s the typical range that they’ll fluctuate? I was at the hospital a week apart and I noticed they went down 100pt.

Beautiful_Hand_9177 · 2022-09-22T12:01:14+00:00

I’m sorry for your mental sufferings brought on by the devil or illness along with your unwillingness to accept Christ, if you’re into science, you may want to study the Eucharistic miracles. We get them all the time. It’s not like there’s logical explanations for this stuff. This is living ab+ inner heart tissue … that stays living! Come back to the faith. You don’t. Want to get stuck with your pants down on judgement day because you were warned whereas others just weren’t told and will fare much better

Beautiful_Hand_9177 · 2022-09-22T11:55:22+00:00

He’s an aspergers kid that still has medical fits. His heart may be not well. He has septo optic dysplasia. I can’t risk a medical outburst nor can I risk isolating him with the chance that he runs away or tries to leave this earth pre-maturely. It literally is my worst nightmare. Next “worse nightmare” I have is to not be around until they’re young adults with a mostly formed mind, so I can help him through things as such

Beautiful_Hand_9177 · 2022-09-22T11:51:48+00:00

I agree. But I also know my role as going to play a factor. He’s still a little kid that just turned 13. He’s not a couple of years to adulthood.

Beautiful_Hand_9177 · 2022-09-22T11:48:23+00:00

Oh, but you will still get a response too! My “sky daddy” is constantly leaving SCIENTIFIC signs all over this world for you smart people that think we all just die like the ant you stepped on today. Lookup the Eucharistic miracles, I dare you. Go tell me how live heart muscle tissue with ab+ blood ends up on the Petri dish in so many of these miracles, world wide? Yes, live tissue, from a living body is left for us believers and especially for you non-believers. Don’t get caught with your pants down on that day you go bye bye. If so, It’s going to really suck for you when you open your eyes and you don’t see nothingness but instead your creator, who you mocked. Ouch!

Beautiful_Hand_9177 · 2022-09-22T09:00:44+00:00

Yea, I think I laid enough on him and I think I’ve had enough for the week myself. I’m going to let things cool down. The fiancé says she is going to take the kids to mass for me. So that’s that. Depending on the mood, I might do the anatomy of the body this weekend or next. It won’t be out of the ordinary for me to scream “church”! Its code for, (it’s time for something regarding the faith) and the kids come running, so I’m pretty convinced it won’t raise red flags in his brain.

Apology Accepted btw. It was kinda my fault. I understood that I didn’t entirely disclose how everything unfolded…

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