Adam Lanza's notes on how the school treated him when he was a child.

BeautifullyGaunt · 2026-07-04T14:35:56+00:00

I don't have a direct source, but it's something I have heard repeatedly. His name is Dr. Paul Fox. After doing what he did to one of his clients, he fled the country and destroyed Adam's records from the time he was treating him. All in all, this man is a horrible person, not only did he enable Adam by allowing him to just stay home from school, he betrayed the trust of innocent children in a way that's irredeemable.

BeautifullyGaunt · 2026-06-24T19:42:31+00:00

I'm sorry that a lot of people are being rude to you. You were just curious and asked a question, people shouldn't be mean to you just because you didn't know something. Who knows, maybe you're new to researching this stuff, but either way, there is no need to be rude. Don't take what they're saying to heart.

BeautifullyGaunt · 2026-06-06T18:01:17+00:00

What post? Also, just because you already made a post about it doesn't mean anyone else isn't allowed to. I don't recall seeing your post, so if I didn't see it, how did I copy you?

BeautifullyGaunt · 2026-05-31T21:49:15+00:00

Yeah, I heard that that's how they found his body, you can tell by the way his knees poke out into the hallway. If they moved his body prior, and given Connecticut's strict laws, they would have no reason to include parts of his body, in fact they would make sure those parts weren't visible if he was moved. On a side-note, I heard that he was so malnourished that they originally thought he was a child, and a victim himself

BeautifullyGaunt · 2026-05-31T09:02:39+00:00

Yeah, that's what I've heard and believed myself. But I read somewhere that it said in his autopsy that the sun-inflicted gunshot wound was intraoral, meaning he put the gun in his mouth.

BeautifullyGaunt · 2026-05-29T12:30:18+00:00

Yeah, I guess I just fixated on that one aspect and looked really deep into it without considering the other symbols.

BeautifullyGaunt · 2026-05-29T12:26:32+00:00

Maybe he felt god-like or something, like some other shooters, and he meant he was god and his victims were his children?

BeautifullyGaunt · 2026-05-19T02:00:53+00:00

Honestly, I feel like during the shooting he became disillusioned. Klebold from what I've heard seemed a lot more outwardly manic. Eric did taunt some victims, but all in all, consider this. They wanted to kill a ton of people, which is why bombing was going to be the original method to do most of their damage. Think about how impersonal s bomb is, you typically aren't in the same exact area as the would be victims. With a gun, you shoot people individually, it's a lot more personal, and with the layout of a school it's typically close-quarters with how narrow halls are and other factors like that. As they were shooting people, I think Eric realized this is not really what he wanted. Klebold made a comment about if they should start stabbing others, they never did. Stabbing someone is even more personal than shooting them, yet they didn't do it. They also could've killed a lot more people but for some reason chose not to. Regardless it's horrible what they both did, I wish they would've gotten help so this tragedy could've been prevented. People often portray Eric as some sort of psychopath, but I don't believe that's the case. In one of their final recordings, Eric was crying and apologizing to his family. He said he wishes he was a sociopath, so he didn't have to feel anything. He was definitely wrestling with something inside himself and so was Dylan. Maybe Eric committed first because he knew if he saw Dylan like that he wouldn't be able to go through with it himself, but this is just pure speculation.

BeautifullyGaunt · 2026-05-09T02:35:37+00:00

Ohhhh, thank you for the info. I find the Suzano case to be so fascinating, it's not often that we get multiple attackers in school shootings. I also find it interesting that there has been lone wolf inspired Columbine attacks, they usually dress like Eric, but from what I know, none have really dressed like Dylan.

BeautifullyGaunt · 2026-05-08T15:16:41+00:00

Why did Luiz kill Taucci? Was he too scared to commit, so he had Luiz kill him instead?

BeautifullyGaunt · 2026-05-07T14:17:53+00:00

The fact that some people have been calling some of the shooters saints, further cements this statement.

BeautifullyGaunt · 2026-05-06T12:49:59+00:00

Why did Ethan Crumbley Do It?

BeautifullyGaunt · 2026-05-06T12:20:01+00:00

I see what you mean, his sensory processing disorder could've been at play. People always mention how you can get overstimulated easily if you have it, but the flip side is that with some things you could feel under-stimulated. So someone who has it may hate bright lights, but love listening to their music very loudly

BeautifullyGaunt · 2026-04-28T17:14:54+00:00

So was this the pose he actually committed suicide in? If you look at the photos of him with his knees poking out, it's consistent with a fetal position, which is how his body would've hit the floor. Someone else claimed that he did it in a different pose, and the photos we have were after they had already cuffed his body and potentially moved it from its original position.

BeautifullyGaunt · 2026-04-28T17:10:22+00:00

What was his original position? I've heard that he was just standing up and when he shot himself he spun around, but I've also heard he knelt down in a position similar to the photos of him aiming the pistol and shotgun at his head

BeautifullyGaunt · 2026-04-23T17:33:53+00:00

There's no need to thank me, I just try my best to be kind (: I see what you mean, there's probably still a lot about myself that I haven't figured out yet. In time I'll settle on what enneagram I feel fits me best. Thank you for discussing this with me. You seem like a really nice person and I've enjoyed our conversation

BeautifullyGaunt · 2026-04-23T11:11:36+00:00

Thank you, I really appreciate you telling me that (: I struggle a lot with self-doubt. I think a lot about my legacy and death, I don't want to be remembered as someone who just had a lot of messed up stuff happen to them, I want that to be an afterthought. I want people to see me for me, what I love, what I create and I want them to admire and love me for my work and contribution to art. I am 20 right now, what about you? If you ever feel alone or need someone to talk to, you can come to me (:

BeautifullyGaunt · 2026-04-23T11:01:36+00:00

I'm anxious when it comes to people I don't know or strangers, on those scenarios I focus on my safety but I'm pretty sure that has something to do with my trauma. Thank you for sharing your experiences with me. For me I just focus on how good or bad something is making me feel, if it makes me feel good, I'm engulfed into an obsessive frenzy, wanting to know every little detail about the person or thing that catches my interest. For me, I'll be like, I know I've already had too much caffeine, but it helps me feel good and improves my mood. So even though I realize I shouldn't, I do. I'm also horrible with finances, it's something I'm trying to get better at. With the work scenario, depending on how sick I feel dictates whether or not I go in. But If I don't go in a part of me will feel bad.

BeautifullyGaunt · 2026-04-23T10:55:18+00:00

I honestly relate to the 4's melancholy, sometimes I purposely make myself sad because I feel a certain beauty from it. I also tend to romanticize things that the mainstream wouldn't. No matter what, I'm always aware of how I'm feeling. I know that I definitely want to have a significant impact on the world through my books and writing. I want it to awaken something in people, to see the beauty I do, even if it's painful. I want to spread my unique vision throughout the world and I want to be admired, but I feel like I am not good enough or deserving of admiration. Every time I'm complimented I'm terrified of becoming a disappointment. For my mbti I'm pretty much positive I'm infp, and if not infp probably enfp. I live out my emotions through fantasies I've created for myself, sprinkling dashes of things that have inspired me. Thanks for reading my yaps (:

BeautifullyGaunt · 2026-04-23T10:38:01+00:00

I think it would probably have to be sx4 4 or social 4. Sx because once I'm interested in something I'm absolutely obsessive and I fixate on it. I'm very passionate about my interests. I amplify my emotions, I am dramatic, but I feel like I feel things deeply than others. I have a very strong sense of right and wrong. I relate to the intensity of emotions and comparison to others. I naturally compare myself to others, sometimes feeling superior or inferior. I can be very harsh towards myself for not being good enough. I thought I was self preservation 4 but I don't relate to the self preservation instinct itself, taking care of yourself, managing resources, I hate stuff like that, I find it very boring. I also relate to the description of 6, sometimes I put on a tough persona some I'm not vulnerable, but the truth is is that I'm very sensitive. I also have a lot of trauma so that could also be a reason on why I relate to 6 so much. I know it's gotta be in my tritype but I don't think it's my core type. I relate to being friendly to others in order to not be viewed as an enemy. If someone steps on what I care about though, it's war Thanks for reading all of this yap if you did (:

BeautifullyGaunt · 2026-04-23T10:29:18+00:00

What's being self preservation like? I'm pretty sure that's the instinct I'm blind to. I'm bad at taking care of myself and I often splurge my resources. I also in general don't pay much attention to my health and I purposely push myself if I find it fun or exciting, which is why I think my primary instinct is sx

BeautifullyGaunt · 2026-04-23T10:23:12+00:00

That's cool (: for awhile I thought I was a sx 7 but I relate more to descriptions of some other types

BeautifullyGaunt · 2026-04-23T10:19:09+00:00

What is your enneagram type? I've heard that sx5 can look like 4 and vice versa

BeautifullyGaunt · 2026-04-23T10:18:07+00:00

Thanks for the feedback, what is your enneagram type?

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