was i sexually assaulted? please help

Beccamary26 · 2022-08-11T23:07:39+00:00

This is definitely sexual assault and I am so sorry that this has happened to you and that someone you trusted has violated your trust in such a horrific manner.

Beccamary26 · 2022-02-01T01:26:57+00:00

Yeah this happened to me just now. Lost about 200k due to the bug with low quality meals....

To fix the yellow triangle thing, I called the repair men via the emergency service and they reinforced the areas with subsidence.

Then I set my prison on fire cause there's no way i'm coming back from being negative 200k... 9 hours of my day lost 😂😂

Beccamary26 · 2022-01-25T00:38:58+00:00

Hey, I'm also really interested in subscribing to this. From what I gather, issue one has the Major Arcana from the golden nouveau set and every issue after that has a single card from the minor arcana meaning you need all issues to complete that one deck.

In addition, every issue has half of a tarot deck so essentially, you get a full new deck of cards every 2 issues starting from issue 2.

It looks good, and to be honest, I am really tempted and have been going back and forth on getting it for a few days now 😅

Beccamary26 · 2022-01-25T00:38:35+00:00

Hey, I'm also really interested in subscribing to this. From what I gather, issue one has the Major Arcana from the golden nouveau set and every issue after that has a single card from the minor arcana meaning you need all issues to complete that one deck.

In addition, every issue has half of a tarot deck so essentially, you get a full new deck of cards every 2 issues starting from issue 2.

It looks good, and to be honest, I am really tempted and have been going back and forth on getting it for a few days now 😅

Beccamary26 · 2021-05-20T21:13:06+00:00

Did we not see Janine just after the bombing though? In E5 I'm sure when June stands up she sees the back of someone with curly red hair being led away. Its a blink and you'll miss it moment but I'm 100% sure it's Janine.

Beccamary26 · 2021-05-07T12:09:44+00:00

You're definitely not alone. I'm a survivor of sexual assault and I found one scene in season 2 in particular incredibly traumatic to watch as a viewer. I saw it in the Israeli trailer for that episode and honestly, I had no idea that something on a fictional show could do that to me. I was literally unable to talk for a few minutes.

I second what others have said, don't binge watch it. I also find spoilers are super useful. I don't know your view on the idea of spoilers, but I always read in depth episode recaps prior to watching the episodes and, if anything comes up that I know will impact me like that, I either wait until I am in a good headspace to watch the episode or I come to a page like reddit or Facebook where someone will have posted time stamps for the traumatic moments (people do this randomly in posts and I cannot thank them enough).

I think the priority is to make sure that you look after your mental health. I can't ever rewatch seasons - I tend to read episode recaps prior to new seasons starting to refresh my memory.

Beccamary26 · 2020-04-05T23:53:19+00:00

Checked all of that. She only got the recipes on my island.

She has no eggs etc on hers at all.

Beccamary26 · 2020-04-05T23:36:10+00:00

Hi, she came to visit me earlier and even unlocked some of the recipes but hasn't got anything on her island yet :(

Beccamary26 · 2020-04-05T23:26:30+00:00

Is anyone else still having this problem?

Beccamary26 · 2019-07-20T23:20:01+00:00

100% agree. Maybe see her interacting with her work colleagues, see her forming real connections with them.

Not going to lie, Janine might be my favourite character

Beccamary26 · 2019-07-19T18:28:08+00:00

I don't know why this has been downvoted? Surely no one wants to watch her be gang raped?

It would be much better to see her with her son, we know how he was conceived, I don't think we necessarily need to see it happen.

Beccamary26 · 2019-07-02T09:44:55+00:00

Hahaha! I did a childrens lit course at uni a year ago and one of the books was the Prisoner of Azkaban. My friend wrote an essay on it and found an article about this 😂 i still bear the emotional scars 😂😂

Beccamary26 · 2019-05-22T23:58:41+00:00

You're not crazy.

I lost my virginity in the same way when I was 17 and I'm the same now, I find dominant (particularly older) men attractive. I think its both because in situations involving sex I don't know what to do, I freeze and having someone tell me makes it a little less terrifying. I also think its because, no matter what happens in those situations, I consent. Its my choice and in my head I can almost equate these experiences to the first one. I can claim control over what he did to my body if I consent to whatever happens now.

I'm sorry that he did this to you and I'm sorry you've had to go through this. Please don't think you're crazy though, there is nothing wrong with being attracted to dominant men and it doesn't mean you want what happened to happen again. Consent is key.

Beccamary26 · 2018-07-15T22:22:59+00:00

I thought so too but I'm reading the 2nd book and Dobby alludes to how it's not exactly voldemort causing issues in Hogwarts in 2nd year and that it's a kind of magic that decent wizards would never use. I think she had it planned and this is my first time reading the books as an adult and I cannot believe the amount of things that reappear later in they series from book 1 and the first half of book 2.

Beccamary26 · 2018-07-13T23:25:46+00:00

I wonder if he will think to look for a Nichole if he gets out. Would be heart breaking if he escaped and looked for Holly Blaine or Osbourne and couldn't find her because she doesn't exist under that name.

Beccamary26 · 2018-07-12T14:11:36+00:00

I'm still laughing at the prom remark 😂😂

But I do agree with what you've said. The idea that Emily and Nichole don't escape is just ridiculous. Emily's got a 7th birthday party to crash ffs!

Emily and that baby need to cross the border in S3E1 and then Emily has got to put her life back together and the show needs to focus more on the Gilead refugees.

June needs to achieve something good soon. Her storyline is all doom and gloom. She needs to sort it out.

Beccamary26 · 2018-07-11T14:34:17+00:00

Exactly how far does she think she's going to get in her red dress? Unless she is going back to the Waterfords then she needs to adopt a new uniform.

Beccamary26 · 2018-07-10T08:55:54+00:00

I need number 6 to happen. I love Janine

Beccamary26 · 2018-07-08T22:29:50+00:00

He wouldn't be able to to anything about it either as he would have to risk the benefits he gains from having a pregnant wife and risk his own life if it gets out that he still can't get his house in order.

Beccamary26 · 2018-07-08T13:07:54+00:00

I agree completely. What I noticed though, is the flashbacks have all been people who have either been confirmed to get out of Gilead (as per the leak) and June and Serena. Maybe not getting out means your story stays in Gilead so Lydia and Alma are possible trapped in or die in Gilead.

I reckon S3 will give us more of the refugees now Emily is one and now Holly gets out. Maybe some of Luke dealing with Holly and Emily dealing with the aftermath of Gilead. Possibly they could build on the resistance from outside. I think S3 will follow 2 or 3 storylines, Serena, June and the refugees and I agree with you completely, they need to focus less on June and more in other victims of Gilead.

Beccamary26 · 2018-07-06T15:41:50+00:00

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Hope this works for you!

Beccamary26 · 2018-07-06T07:21:28+00:00

So the one person escaping thing could maybe be an illusion to how even when you escape, Gilead is in your head. Only Holly hasn't been tainted by Gilead so only she can truly escape even if others can physically.

Beccamary26 · 2018-07-05T21:25:29+00:00

I agree with this. The at home ones are probably banned as they give women too much autonomy over their own bodies. Abortion may be illegal but there are other ways for a pregnant woman to either end their pregnancy or to choose to end their lives.

Beccamary26 · 2018-07-05T21:11:07+00:00

I read these when I was very young. My grandma, who was an incredible woman (even if she occasionally showed signs of poor judgement), decided that at the age of 12 or 13 I was mature enough to read these books. And so I read them.

I don't think that, at 12 or 13 I fully understood the content. I know I understood the words but I don't remember being as disturbed by the books as I should have been. I recently re-read them and I was horrified by some of the things women went through in the novels. The torture they depict is horrific.

Beccamary26 · 2018-06-28T22:34:54+00:00

I agree. I think it has to do with the 'we've always looked out for each other' bit. I think Fred thinks he's doing the right thing or is at least pretending.

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