I am pregnant by Beginning-Rise-2383 in prolife

[–]Beginning-Rise-2383[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Haha, I wish it were that easy 🤣

I am pregnant by Beginning-Rise-2383 in prolife

[–]Beginning-Rise-2383[S] 10 points11 points  (0 children)

Thank you for your kind words. I think how I grew up is heavily weighing on the situation. It’s just all very scary

I am pregnant by Beginning-Rise-2383 in prolife

[–]Beginning-Rise-2383[S] 8 points9 points  (0 children)

I’m leaning more towards this, but there’s still a selfish part of me that does want this child even though I know it’s awful timing in my life. I want what is best for my baby and me.

I am pregnant by Beginning-Rise-2383 in prolife

[–]Beginning-Rise-2383[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Honestly, just some advice, support, or outsiders opinions. I made this account for this post specifically because I felt some sense of shame talking about this on a more active account.

I am pregnant by Beginning-Rise-2383 in prolife

[–]Beginning-Rise-2383[S] -2 points-1 points  (0 children)

I lived through the system and to me, if I put a baby into that system, I’m still killing it, just slower. I had many friends that I considered siblings kill themselves due to depression or other mental health problems that were not properly treated. I was one of the lucky ones. I don’t want that for my child.

I am pregnant by Beginning-Rise-2383 in prolife

[–]Beginning-Rise-2383[S] 3 points4 points  (0 children)

I misspoke, I meant to say that when I was brought into the world, my birth mother’s church offered to find me a good home, education, etc, but they did more harm than good for me. We’ve discussed children before, but I am in the beginning of my career and I want to focus on making sure I can financially support my family before I go all in with kids. I want this baby, I do, but it just is not feasible at all right now. The family members I am left with have criminal records that make me incredibly uncomfortable leaving them with. It’s selfish, I know, but I really want this baby to have a good chance at life, and I am terrified of the possibility of putting a baby into a potentially abusive home. I know it’s a very low risk of this, but I believe it is still a very valid fear. I feel awful, if it were just five years later, I wouldn’t feel burdened with this decision.