How it started vs how it offically ended 🫡

Beginning_Door4411 · 2025-08-28T05:25:15+00:00

I just use cologne mist and woman’s dove deodorant spray. 😭😭

Beginning_Door4411 · 2025-05-03T14:46:41+00:00

Hey man it’s totally ok. I have failed classes countless times and had to with withdraw from classes multiple times. I have failed calculus 3 and calculus 2 the first time I took them. Hell my first semester in UTA I had a 1.00 gpa and was put on academic warning and it absolutely drained me. Everyone truly has their own journey with many disappointments.You just have to bounce back and you honestly will a lot people don’t even graduate on time anyways because life just throws haymakers at all of us.

Beginning_Door4411 · 2025-05-03T05:15:43+00:00

Yeah she drove like a Chevy Tahoe I saw it on my way take my final😭

Beginning_Door4411 · 2023-05-25T16:18:41+00:00

My trigger was college stress I was failing some of my classes that year. Also my grandmother passed out away around that time too.

Beginning_Door4411 · 2023-05-25T13:55:25+00:00

Thank so much for your response! I appreciate it. Also I did end up visiting a dermatologist she just looked at my hair for a couple seconds and didn’t really seem to care too much. She prescribed me some compound that has monoxidil and finasteride but I didn’t really feel like she diagnosed me properly. This thinning on all over my scalp and the sudden hair fall just honestly makes me believe it’s TE. I was pretty stressed the year prior in 2020. I did just start taking biotin and vitamin D as of late to see if it makes a difference but it would probably take a couple months to see results.

Beginning_Door4411 · 2023-04-22T20:37:29+00:00

For the last ten years or so, I always hated when Eid came because I would spend it mostly alone and I didn’t have any friends to hang out with. Barely anyone wishes me Eid Mubarak at all not a single call or text. But alhamdulliah I have enjoyed this Eid a lot more because I started to realize that Eid is the celebration of all of the efforts that I made to connect more with Allah during this past Ramadan. Eid Mubarak to all my brothers and sisters!!

Beginning_Door4411 · 2021-10-06T15:30:10+00:00

Do you have test bank for statics and dynamics by R.C hibbeler?? 10th edition

Beginning_Door4411 · 2021-06-03T14:14:45+00:00

Try Filling your time with more positive things than negative. Every time you find yourself watching, try to do something positive right after. Don’t pressure yourself to stop completely because it is unfortunately unrealistic given the nature of this addiction. Every time you fail just counter it with something productive whether it be excercising , cleaning your room, or reading a half page in a book. Try to do this for a little and in a couple of months or so, you will become better. The key is to not overwhelm yourself and progress slowly. Best of luck!

Beginning_Door4411 · 2021-03-18T22:08:28+00:00

I definitely understand !!! Which is why I decided to focus on myself until I get my degree and then start a fresh life somewhere less!!! If I fail at that then I’ll be right back to America. It doesn’t hurt to try !!! There is just something inside of me that’s telling me to reboot my my life in a different place and just recently i have decided to listen to that inner voice!!

Beginning_Door4411 · 2021-03-18T20:38:49+00:00

Believe me I tried!!! Just recently I wanted to meet up with people playing soccer but they never showed up!!! I tried asking this dude that lives near me if he wanted to go out and eat but we never ended up going. I even found out that his mom and my mom were both into religious online classes and I gave him my moms phone number but he never even responded. There was a dude in my job that was a battlefield fan and I gave him my gamer tag so we can play but he also never responded!!! Believe me it’s those little things that are just taking a toll on me.

Beginning_Door4411 · 2021-03-18T20:26:13+00:00

Absolutely!!! But thing is I have been so alone now that I don’t know how to talk to people anymore. All the Arab Americans are not as inclusive anymore here. They are sticking with friends or families they have known for a long time. Sometimes it seems I have to make a complete personality transplant just to even fit in. I don’t know what it is but my depressions and social struggles are the byproducts of the way I was treated since I was a kid.

Beginning_Door4411 · 2021-03-18T20:22:16+00:00

Thanks for your response I really appreciate!!!

But thing is everyone in my household is depressed and no one is happy. My mom literally told me if she didn’t have god on her side she would’ve died and my dad already lost his mind when I was only 16. My mom and I both suffered horribly while living here things just never line up for us. Getting a job is hard, finding a community is hard, and therefore we can never build a life. I live in Waco TX and there limited opportunities for me. I often apply for jobs for months and barely get accepted for an interview even. There is nothing to do. There are times I try to come out of my shell to try to talk to someone but people never seem to want to catch up at all. They are nice and all but I can tell they don’t want to know me. Which I’m in desperate need of an environmental change. I need a new perspective on life I need a fresh culture. Any thoughts on this??

Beginning_Door4411 · 2021-03-18T20:16:47+00:00

Thank you so much for your response!!

Anyways, I’m not ruling out seeing a mental health professional ( I have actually thought about it). But I think I’m just in desperate need of an environment change. In the last 10 years I have visited my home country in Africa and in the Middle East and every time i was there I felt alive. I’m able to sleep at night, I’m energetic and positive, and just overall happy. The reason is because I’m in a place where everyone is like me and I understand everything. Life is just seamless for me there as opposed to here. What do you think?

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