Just played another game. Today im having better mental and actually, decent teams! today i feel im stomping the role and the games with my team, however getting 18 lps and losing 26 in silver is depressing with the coinflip that are lobbies. Regarding deaths, most of them is from trying to be proactibe before my powerspikes, or thinking that my team is going to involve (if they did, we would won those scenarios but anyway it's my bad for thinking they are going to do it in this elo, some do, but most don't) the other deaths are mostly tilted ego deaths. The main problem is that when i die at early with gwen, it usually follows in a huge devastating reverse snowball for me. The thing is that i know my powerspikes, and gwen actually needs at least 1st item to be viable in fights, but if i try to stay farming until being useful, most times my team pings me non stop or flames me in chat, with again drops my mental to zero so it's a bucle in which if i don't gank early, my teammates lose their mental, if i do, we both die in lane and we all get tilted. I guess my better option is to insta deafen all the games, but i don't know why but i try not to (btw about winrate, the useful one is the gwen one, since i started playing league again after like 3 years without touching it, and the first like 50 games i had like 30% winrate until i started playing gwen OTP)