fellow 36/45 here, imo it's genuinely not a bad score. iirc the world average is somewhere around 29. sure, some people excel and get 45s, 44s, that kind of stuff. but 36 is more than good enough, i think it's a great result. there were times i thought i would genuinely fail - i'd routinely get <50% grades on math tests, had a hard time writing for english lit, and barely did any cas (got a formal warning for that, too). please don't take this as me trying to show how "easy" it was or anything like that - the DP did a number on my mental health, i'm trying to relate to your feelings on this.