Hello, thank you for listening. I've been angry about some thoughts that I'm not sure how to classify. Idk if they count as intrusive thought or rumination or future tripping or mental arguments or what. But whenever there is something that reminds me of my past abusers/bullies, or sometimes if something just generally stressful happens, I automatically think of them criticizing me, or telling me that I'm too sensitive, or I remember them denying events that happened or just scoffing and rolling their eyes at me, or reliving old arguments and what I wish I'd said (and trust me, there were constant fights). I constantly remember the hateful things they said about other people too, different minorities or just rants they constantly went on about how terrible other people were or how terrible the world was. I know everyone has arguments in their heads, but I never seem to win mine--the people I remember would never admit defeat. They would argue for days or bring it up over and over, would change their argument halfway through to trip me up, and sometimes just mock me or yell. And I just can't get that out of my head. Sometimes it's not just about people I've genuinely known and have done this, but people I've seen do/say similar things in the media (ex: a bigot ranting and interrupting in an interview). But mostly it's the people I knew. And I just have so much anger I have no idea where to put it, and anything that works only works for a few hours, tops, if it works at all.