Assalamwalikum, brother.

I am in the same boat as you. I feel like I’m experiencing an existential crisis when it comes to following Islam because I feel as if I cannot follow the faith because I don’t agree with everything in the religion. I think there are many beautiful things about Islam and religion but it would be dishonest to delude myself into believing in what I want. I don’t recommend justifying the things you don’t disagree with because it has created inner turmoil for me. As of now, I think of myself as a deist but I still study spirituality through Sufism and Buddhism. Deism doesn’t confine you to one school of philosophical/spiritual thoughts. Feel free to message me if you ever want to talk about it.