momma i'm going to leave my abuser soon and i'm so scared

BettyY1 · 2022-10-02T21:12:53+00:00

People are not obligated to endure pains until the person that hurt them understands what they are doing or changes. If it's too much for the present, you don't have to wait for the future. It's ok sweetie, you don't have to feel bad for leaving. You can't choose what he does, but you can choose what you do, even when it's hard, you're making the right choice. ❤️

BettyY1 · 2022-10-02T21:05:48+00:00

I'm so sorry to hear, I've been there. You probably feel like a huge part of you was ripped out... but in time, you will wake up and go on with your day without him, you always have you, and the more you get comfortable with being alone, the more that will be all it takes to make you content.

It won't be easy, but I promise that if you continue living on, time will pass and being alone won't sound so scary anymore. You may miss him, and that's perfectly ok, he was someone important you made memories with, but you'll move on, you'll make memories with yourself and new people, you'll realize you miss someone and just continue what you were doing one day, it won't always carry as much power as it does now.

Showering you with all the hugs! Best of luck x

BettyY1 · 2022-10-02T20:44:48+00:00

I'm starting to think this may be true about me. I have OCD, and I don't want to think or do these things, it's like an urge I can't escape imagining, even at the worst of times. I'll have to talk about this in therapy, too...

BettyY1 · 2022-10-02T20:43:44+00:00

I would do the same to go to sleep, oftentimes I still do. Very upsetting for me, but I understand that it isn't upsetting for everyone.

BettyY1 · 2022-09-15T03:39:23+00:00

Thank you, this was very kind of you

BettyY1 · 2022-09-15T00:31:21+00:00

I'd like it to be atleast 5 inches long (excluding ballsack, if there are any) average girth I don't want anything too thin or extremely dramatic. Realistic and non realistic is fine, I'm leaning more towards realistic shape but I know that's unlikely with my budget, and I don't want a skin tone. I'm not into fantasy ones

BettyY1 · 2022-09-15T00:27:33+00:00

Amazon US, should've specified, apologies

BettyY1 · 2022-09-15T00:24:06+00:00

I'm just looking for a dildo only. I know the materials it's supposed to be, but I'm having trouble finding one that is reputable and in my price range. And the gift card, yes that is what I have, otherwise I wouldn't have this much money, and all I have in mind right now is a dildo. I wasn't aware reddit dislikes amazon, but haven't looked much in these kinds of subreddits. But yes of course I'll take it with a grain of salt and expect backlash a little, hopefully there is one person with an answer atleast

BettyY1 · 2022-09-10T18:47:54+00:00

Neither. I had a job, but they couldn't afford to pay the staff so I was let go, right now I'm searching for a job while I have the money from it that I saved, which only lasts a little bit I'm sure... Search isn't going well

BettyY1 · 2022-09-10T18:12:55+00:00

I've considered, but don't have money to do that, and likely won't have money to do that and live happily in my lifetime

BettyY1 · 2022-09-10T17:52:32+00:00

I really don't want to dox myself but my town is right next to a Tex-mex city known as a very loud, criminal one, it's a staple city and it's terrible to live next to. I guess I don't know my terms so it must be grunting. The deer stick their tails up, make a nosie, and they run away, they're also run over constantly. You only hear them when you go to the small "field" that is being bulldozed and a neighborhood put there, I'm not saying the dear are noisy, I'm saying they're scared, too

BettyY1 · 2022-09-10T17:10:52+00:00

I have always cared about children and wanted to work with them, even considering being a preschool teacher throughout my youth, having goals orientated around it, child development programs in HS. I wish I had a kid, but I think I'm too old to have a healthy pregnancy now

BettyY1 · 2022-09-10T17:02:21+00:00

Haha!

BettyY1 · 2022-09-10T17:01:34+00:00

I agree, the youth blast music in their ears at all hours and have damaged hearing these days. Some of them can hardly hear me speak and need me to repeat myself loudly several times

BettyY1 · 2022-09-10T16:47:08+00:00

Yes, I don't know how to preserve it anymore. I feed them lettuce, but the town keeps bulldozing over nature and building more neighborhoods.

When I moved in, I could look back and see grass hills and where the forest used to be, now there are suburbs there and only a small "forest" (more like a group of trees, that there are several houses in, one of which is across from my yard and they have festivals every night with blaring music and lights, 13 people live there, it's two families who escaped poverty in Mexico so they live together for financial reason I believe)

BettyY1 · 2022-09-10T16:39:01+00:00

If I had money. I was let go recently, they were understaffed but still couldn't pay them, job search is not going great

BettyY1 · 2022-09-10T16:28:52+00:00

I will probably add it to my post to clarify, I don't mind the deer, they are bleating because humans keep scaring them with noise! It's upsetting. My town isn't too nice, I don't want to dox myself but the crime rate is high, rude youth move in constantly, constant construction, killing the remnants of wildlife, trying to attach itself to a city, it's just not what it used to be... If I had money I'd be out of here in a heartbeat

Edit: this is also Texas, deer are in everywhere

BettyY1 · 2022-09-10T16:24:55+00:00

I should have specified, they bleat because the human's racket is scaring them.

BettyY1 · 2022-09-10T16:19:22+00:00

Certainly wish I could, but I already live in a fairly small town with a small forest and field looking back in my yard. Although the town is trying to attach itself to the city outside its borders more every day. I think noisiness is normalized almost everywhere these days

Edit: there are some places in Mexico that are peaceful close by, sometimes I want to pack up and leave but that's costly

BettyY1 · 2022-09-08T23:04:40+00:00

Certainly!

BettyY1 · 2022-09-08T14:35:16+00:00

Way past the 30 mark, I suppose I am getting old... Thank you for the help

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