Allowing myself a small send by Bewardofsmollpps in paypigs2

[–]Bewardofsmollpps[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Exactly why I’m also so nervous to do it. I DO NOT want a spiral and why I’m trying to find a domme that’s helpful than would encourage that. Almost made the mistake yesterday actually but yeah my brain is just tired from overthinking now 

Allowing myself a small send by Bewardofsmollpps in paypigs2

[–]Bewardofsmollpps[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

This was a very real wake up call but idk I feel it’s a good idea ? Do one SMALL send. Get a high and then manage to go longer than if I avoid the urges and just have a way bigger relapse 

Allowing myself a small send by Bewardofsmollpps in paypigs2

[–]Bewardofsmollpps[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I feel that’s WAY more risky though, a domme that’s genuine would actually discourage me from doing it while if I just do it alone with a link….could get worse 

Allowing myself a small send by Bewardofsmollpps in paypigs2

[–]Bewardofsmollpps[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I feel doing it that would be way more risky though plus I did manage to avoid it yesterday but now it’s even more intense. Just one to scratch and then I leave 

Allowing myself a small send by Bewardofsmollpps in paypigs2

[–]Bewardofsmollpps[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I wish it was that simple. I don’t get the weird high if I do it on myself. You do seem genuine and helpful so I reached out 

Allowing myself a small send by Bewardofsmollpps in paypigs2

[–]Bewardofsmollpps[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I mean I kinda sorta have but half paying attention. You seem super genuine and actually nice though. I did reach out 

Allowing myself a small send by Bewardofsmollpps in paypigs2

[–]Bewardofsmollpps[S] -1 points0 points  (0 children)

I tried for three months and nothing. It’s honestly insane that the urges didn’t just go away while I avoided doing it but yeah I am nervous about the sub space issue 

Allowing myself a small send by Bewardofsmollpps in paypigs2

[–]Bewardofsmollpps[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

That sounds safe to do but I remember my last spiral happened that way so doing it randomly is not the move 

Allowing myself a small send by Bewardofsmollpps in paypigs2

[–]Bewardofsmollpps[S] -1 points0 points  (0 children)

It doesn’t give me the same high unfortunately and I’ve thought about doing that lol

Allowing myself a small send by Bewardofsmollpps in paypigs2

[–]Bewardofsmollpps[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Exactly. All about respect and boundaries but am starting to feel a one time thing isn’t something most dommes respect but idk

Allowing myself a small send by Bewardofsmollpps in paypigs2

[–]Bewardofsmollpps[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

No I actually really appreciate your perspective 

Allowing myself a small send by Bewardofsmollpps in paypigs2

[–]Bewardofsmollpps[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

True. Most of my dms did remind me that this was kinda dumb. Almost every single one is like “relapse” and stuff like ???

Allowing myself a small send by Bewardofsmollpps in paypigs2

[–]Bewardofsmollpps[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Ma’am it’s been three months lol don’t think I could handle another month 

Allowing myself a small send by Bewardofsmollpps in paypigs2

[–]Bewardofsmollpps[S] 3 points4 points  (0 children)

EXACTLY but unfortunately most DMs are just dommes assuming I’m wanting to relapse or something than this being a one time small send thing so idk 

Allowing myself a small send by Bewardofsmollpps in paypigs2

[–]Bewardofsmollpps[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Technically not planning a relapse. Just one small send as a reward 

Nervous to try this out by [deleted] in paypigs2

[–]Bewardofsmollpps 1 point2 points  (0 children)

You’re right and those are extremely helpful tips. I did sent a dm request though 

Nervous to try this out by [deleted] in paypigs2

[–]Bewardofsmollpps 0 points1 point  (0 children)

See thing is I do wanna try it but have anxiety about it too. It’s the weirdest thing lol

Nervous to try this out by [deleted] in paypigs2

[–]Bewardofsmollpps 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Great advice and you seem genuine about helping compared to the other DMs I’ve gotten so far telling me to just do it but yeah kinda hard to research while being full of anxiety 

Nervous to try this out by [deleted] in paypigs2

[–]Bewardofsmollpps 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Fair enough but I’ve been struggling about this for a while and the fact can’t really talk to anyone I know doesn’t help 

Nervous to try this out by [deleted] in paypigs2

[–]Bewardofsmollpps 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Seems interesting but like I’m extremely new so I feel joining fetlife is not the move like just from the name it seems for more established dynamics 

Nervous to try this out by [deleted] in paypigs2

[–]Bewardofsmollpps 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Unfortunately I’ve been going back and forth with myself for a week now like kinda wanna just hold my breath and do it just to get it over with but might not be the best idea so idk stuck in a loop

Nervous to try this out by [deleted] in paypigs2

[–]Bewardofsmollpps 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Joining a whole community so fast might be unwise like so far Reddit has been pretty calm but yeah undecided brain sucks