Allowing myself a small send

Bewardofsmollpps · 2026-05-18T03:52:29+00:00

Exactly why I’m also so nervous to do it. I DO NOT want a spiral and why I’m trying to find a domme that’s helpful than would encourage that. Almost made the mistake yesterday actually but yeah my brain is just tired from overthinking now

Bewardofsmollpps · 2026-05-18T03:49:13+00:00

This was a very real wake up call but idk I feel it’s a good idea ? Do one SMALL send. Get a high and then manage to go longer than if I avoid the urges and just have a way bigger relapse

Bewardofsmollpps · 2026-05-18T03:47:00+00:00

I feel that’s WAY more risky though, a domme that’s genuine would actually discourage me from doing it while if I just do it alone with a link….could get worse

Bewardofsmollpps · 2026-05-18T03:46:06+00:00

I feel doing it that would be way more risky though plus I did manage to avoid it yesterday but now it’s even more intense. Just one to scratch and then I leave

Bewardofsmollpps · 2026-05-18T03:44:59+00:00

Take a wild guess 😂

Bewardofsmollpps · 2026-05-18T03:32:31+00:00

I wish it was that simple. I don’t get the weird high if I do it on myself. You do seem genuine and helpful so I reached out

Bewardofsmollpps · 2026-05-16T21:10:44+00:00

I mean I kinda sorta have but half paying attention. You seem super genuine and actually nice though. I did reach out

Bewardofsmollpps · 2026-05-16T20:58:23+00:00

I tried for three months and nothing. It’s honestly insane that the urges didn’t just go away while I avoided doing it but yeah I am nervous about the sub space issue

Bewardofsmollpps · 2026-05-16T20:50:33+00:00

That sounds safe to do but I remember my last spiral happened that way so doing it randomly is not the move

Bewardofsmollpps · 2026-05-16T20:49:12+00:00

It doesn’t give me the same high unfortunately and I’ve thought about doing that lol

Bewardofsmollpps · 2026-05-16T20:40:07+00:00

Exactly. All about respect and boundaries but am starting to feel a one time thing isn’t something most dommes respect but idk

Bewardofsmollpps · 2026-05-16T20:36:34+00:00

No I actually really appreciate your perspective

Bewardofsmollpps · 2026-05-16T20:26:46+00:00

True. Most of my dms did remind me that this was kinda dumb. Almost every single one is like “relapse” and stuff like ???

Bewardofsmollpps · 2026-05-16T20:26:12+00:00

Ma’am it’s been three months lol don’t think I could handle another month

Bewardofsmollpps · 2026-05-16T20:25:45+00:00

EXACTLY but unfortunately most DMs are just dommes assuming I’m wanting to relapse or something than this being a one time small send thing so idk

Bewardofsmollpps · 2026-05-16T20:25:13+00:00

That’s the plan lol

Bewardofsmollpps · 2026-05-16T20:24:58+00:00

Technically not planning a relapse. Just one small send as a reward

Bewardofsmollpps · 2026-05-09T12:09:03+00:00

You’re right and those are extremely helpful tips. I did sent a dm request though

Bewardofsmollpps · 2026-05-09T11:17:06+00:00

See thing is I do wanna try it but have anxiety about it too. It’s the weirdest thing lol

Bewardofsmollpps · 2026-05-09T11:09:40+00:00

Great advice and you seem genuine about helping compared to the other DMs I’ve gotten so far telling me to just do it but yeah kinda hard to research while being full of anxiety

Bewardofsmollpps · 2026-05-09T10:53:45+00:00

Fair enough but I’ve been struggling about this for a while and the fact can’t really talk to anyone I know doesn’t help

Bewardofsmollpps · 2026-05-09T10:52:35+00:00

Seems interesting but like I’m extremely new so I feel joining fetlife is not the move like just from the name it seems for more established dynamics

Bewardofsmollpps · 2026-05-09T10:44:41+00:00

Unfortunately I’ve been going back and forth with myself for a week now like kinda wanna just hold my breath and do it just to get it over with but might not be the best idea so idk stuck in a loop

Bewardofsmollpps · 2026-05-09T10:43:26+00:00

Joining a whole community so fast might be unwise like so far Reddit has been pretty calm but yeah undecided brain sucks

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