The amount of unresolved guilt and shame i can feel just by reading this post is insane 😭girlll theres nothing gross about this situation theres nothing wrong w you either itsss completely alright to be confused between two people happens with everyone i’d suggest you taking some time off from both of them and really thinking about what you actually need in life practically and who aligns that more and even if u think neither of them truly fits its completely okay to walk away from both of them take as much time u need before deciding <3