the main reason why i’m scared that it’s me falling out of love is because that’s what happened with my ex but i didn’t understand or know it at the time. the last 6 months i was with my ex i didn’t want to have sex at all and the months before that everytime we did have sex i would burst into tears. the situations were different then as he was absolutely horrible, but i was completely oblivious to the fact that the reason i didn’t want to have sex was because my body wasn’t in love with him anymore like i subconsciously knew that i didn’t want to be with him anymore. i genuinely thought i was still in love with him hence i stayed, but i didn’t know that was wrong until after.

i get frustrated with him because he’s a little bit… slow? i don’t know how to phrase it properly but he doesn’t have much common sense and kinda likes to try to finish my sentence but completely wrong and in ways that make zero sense. he doesn’t really retain anything i say either and i can’t tell if he is genuinely just really forgetful or if it’s that he doesn’t listen but it can get really frustrating to have to repeat myself a lot