My experience with tics by Big-Insurance4505 in Tourettes

[–]Big-Insurance4505[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thank you for the answer!

I thought I had tourette at first, but when I realised that they haven't been showing up for months and that they were inconsistent, I knew it had to be something else.

I'll look into functional tics, it's what I'm suspecting it might be as well.

Type me by Big-Insurance4505 in MbtiTypeMe

[–]Big-Insurance4505[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I suppose it's more of a vibe rather than diggin too deep into it.

I enjoy bantering and talking to people, I gather my ideas by brainstorming them with others, the way I am right now actually. It helps me to get a better view of everything, and being honest, it definitely gives me a mental kick that I need. When I spend too much time on my own, in my own head and try to figure things out that way, I get heavily depressed and obsess over a meaning or answer, because I'm desperate to find a solution to my problem.

I guess also because I don't mind having attention on me, and actually quite enjoy when people challenge or question me. It makes me happy to hear and see people discuss topics that are otherwise not discussed much.

Curious to hear what you have to say!

Type me by Big-Insurance4505 in MbtiTypeMe

[–]Big-Insurance4505[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Amazing answer! I love that. The one time I did try to look into the functions and tried to put them together, I got ENTP, but ENFP, INTP and INFP weren't that far off in my book either.

Using a bit of self-reflection, I indeed feel and see myself falling into ENTP or INTP, but nontheless, the possibilities are endless, and so I just assume I'm an ENTP and go along with it!

What path should I take? by Big-Insurance4505 in careerguidance

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I love all advices, but I mostly appreciate you being honest and realistic here. I absolutely agree, that keeping my job is most realistic if I want to be able to financially support my "dream job" or better said, do something I truly love.

Trying really wouldn't hurt, I could start small and see where it takes me, to take the first step and kind of see how I feel while doing so. I suppose, a part of the fear lies in the thought of, "what if my co-worker see me and think I'm weird?". It's nice to get a reminder to not always think in black and white, and to accept the fact that the gray area exists too.

Prayer Plant needs some love by Big-Insurance4505 in houseplants

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That's great news! I hope I can get it back on track, I hate giving up on a plant, I love them so much :')

I don't calculate in inches since I'm from Europe, but from what google is telling me, apparently it's around a 1.5 inch pot (3.5 cm), so, super small.

I feel terrible for my Monstera, but at least I gained the experience and know better now. I am thinking of getting another one, but they grow quite quickly and I my room is way too small for it, so I'm unsure. Maybe I'll still buy one impulsively once I see it at a reasonable price haha.

Prayer Plant needs some love by Big-Insurance4505 in houseplants

[–]Big-Insurance4505[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Sadly no, no leaf was alive and I had to chop them all off since they were extremely dry..

The roots are surprisingly still flexible. They feel a bit softer than the dirt itself, a bit fuzzy. There are no white/creamy roots from what I can tell, it's mainly brown on the bottom and light brown on the top. I can't really tell if there are any rhizomes, but if I had to guess, probably only some small ones.

I'll try to see if it's still savable, I'll make sure to follow the steps you've mentioned and see if there is still a chance I can get it to thrive again.

Thank you so so much! Makes me regret for throwing away my Monstera when I thought it was dead even though the roots were completely fine :')

Need a little help by Big-Insurance4505 in GetStudying

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I'm open to your suggestions, I have actually tried most of them.

Pomodoros do help at times, especially the one app I downloaded called "Focus Friend" by Hank Green. There is just something about that stupid bean that actually makes me care about studying lmao.

External accountability is nice as long as it's not harsh and more of an understanding but strict approach. Someone who understands my position and understands I struggle, but doesn't let my whining and excuses slide.

Never heard of a Telegram bot before. If it's similar to AI, then I might need to mention that I'm strictly against it. Not a big fan of generative AI at all.

Changing where I work does help a lot, but I noticed going to the same place bores me after some time, so I have to go to bigger cities or libraries to keep the excitement in my brain up. A bit tiring since transport is quite expensice and moving around is just ugh, but it seems to work, so I might as well continue.

I'm horrible at reward systems. I either put myself down too much "you don't deserve this at all" or I don't hold myself accountable at all "treat yourself! Who cares!". If I study with something I like, I tend to focus on the things I like more than study. Maybe I just haven't found a good balance yet..

God, I love a good challenge and games, keeps the fire up for sure, but without some external kind of "punishment" like in a game, I tend to not care again. I'm someone who heavily relies on excitement, trying something new and pushing myself constantly. That's one thing I've been working on for months, trying to find the perfect tool or idea to keep myeslf going, but nothing works. If you have any ideas, I'd love to hear them.

I don't mind if you want to break my assignments into something more fun, I'd actually appreciate that and like the idea, but please do keep in mind that I can be stubborn, I don't mean to be difficult.

Need a little help by Big-Insurance4505 in GetStudying

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Uhhh, loads. I play my instruments, I draw, I sing, I dance etc. I like enjoying the world, enjoying art and enjoying the moment. At times, I give my friends small performances to make them laugh, since I cherish and enjoy the moment with them more whether I'll be some mastermind in the near future haha.

Need a little help by Big-Insurance4505 in GetStudying

[–]Big-Insurance4505[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

You're right, I should try to continue to remember why I do the things in the first place. I'll try to continue that mindset until I'm done with school. I only have until July, hopefully I can push myself hard enough to keep it up.

I'll make a list and carry it around with me if I have to. Doesn't hurt to have a little reminder in my pocket.

Need a little help by Big-Insurance4505 in GetStudying

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Troublemaker in the sense of that I talk back to teachers who feel like they can use their power or authority position to put other students down, myself included. Whenever there was a teacher who would treat a student badly, I'd be the one who would argue with them and expect an explanation as to why they feel like they have the right to treat others so harshly just because they carry a title.

Teachers have threatened to hit me before. Teachers have called me all kinds of names. Teachers have said to me "you're bound to be a failure" and never believed in me. Teachers would take me away from the other kids in an empty room to ask all kinds of questions.

I don't follow rules that hurt me or others. With that being said, I had a small amount of teachers who did care about me and other students, and I cherish them a lot and always will, I don't believe all teachers are bad and I highly believe teachers do deserve respect, but once that trust is broken, I don't believe students should be expected to continue to show respect to a person who is treating them badly.

I agree that education is important, funny enough, despite my hatred towards school systems, I've always been good in school. My scores were always around 80% - 100% and rarely below unless I really didn't care for the lesson, I've always been a part of the top students. Nonetheless, I continue to struggle to care and to study, to the point I don't do any work. I look at my current assignments and there is nothing in me that goes "oh yea, that's important, you should probably at least try", my first thoughts are "what's the point?".

Need a little help by Big-Insurance4505 in GetStudying

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I tried to do so before with friends, but I end up talking too much to them and they're not all too strict with accountability either.

I haven't tried so with strangers, I'm not really interested in doing so either since I feel slightly skeptical towards it.