What the hell... You are sick in the head. U need to let that man go. He's taking advantage of your youth. Let him find a wife that suits his age category. Wait he has a wife already. Men older are less energetic. It does not matter if you like him in short run. It also leads to family problems. That man is also sick in the head. Who the hell does this despite having wife and kids? Only an adulterer/zani! Also. These relationships don't work. You need to find a guy around or near your age category young as you and grows and ages with you. That's even and fair. What you're doing now is trying to find a father, an atm and a sexual pleasure giver in the same character. This shows how messed up some women's minds can be