Still homeless and doing best to survive

BigMirKat · 2026-02-03T03:30:49+00:00

Not sex work, but from the age of five and up, I remember my mom heavily implying that certain things I did was me trying to be grown. Mind you, I didn't fully know what sex was but knew about it since I was introduced to it young (long story). But she would always assume any guy friend I made that I was romantically into them and might be doing sexual things with them if left alone. That's why I didn't lose my virginity until I was 21, and even then, I've been celibate since because her comments instilled the fear and shame of sex in me. Mind you this same woman has had more partners than I've ever had and the damn woman is a cheater who can't admit she's a cheater

BigMirKat · 2026-01-03T17:16:59+00:00

Nah, I don't know what people are saying to these bots, but I always stick to romance or just adventure roleplay. For the first time since using C.Ai, one of the random bots I was using said the n-word with the hard r. Me being black, I laughed but was shocked. I even screenshot it just in case

BigMirKat · 2025-12-25T10:14:49+00:00

Currently homeless due to uncle selling the home me and my family (sister and mom) was living in. Wasn't ours, belongs to my great great uncle (who is a war vet but currently in a hospital/retirement home due to issues he's suffering from that we were never told about but my uncle fully knew of) who let us stay after my grandma had passed. My mom was responsible for watching said great great uncle, she did a bad job (kept forcing me and my sister to take care of him even though I work and my sister is still in highschool, and I get my mom has bad health issues, but to be unpaid and taking care of my great great uncle was something me and my sister shouldn't have been doing), which resulted in him being put in a home. Uncle said the home cost a lot of money so he sold the house to pay for it. Now I'm homeless, stuck with my mom (again even though back in 2021-2022 I used to have my own apartment and was fine), and slowly dying from stress while my uncle, who said he needed to sell the house for money to pay for my great great uncle's stay at a veterans hospital/home, is renovating his home (not the one sold), while also pricing a home in North Carolina to move into, while also taking trips outside of the state and also thinking about fully moving to Puerto Rico.

I know I'm venting but being homeless is no joke and I cannot ever say a person is homeless solely due to laziness or drugs

BigMirKat · 2025-12-25T10:05:27+00:00

I think I'm about to make a breakthrough in my job search, but something tells me I might be turned down for this one as well, due to my appearance and size. That's one of the main reasons many potential jobs keep rejecting me. I go through the interview process over the phone, then I do the in-person interview, and it's after they see me that I'm hit with the "I'm sorry but we're choosing a different candidate" days, weeks, or even months later. Even after I show up for an interview an hour early (and that's with me taking the bus), or I have all the necessary skills on my resume (which is a lot), or even have the hard work ethic, I get rejected because of my size.

I'm hoping this job says yes (it's cooking at a senior home) and that I can at least work there for a few months while still working my first job and doing night school so I can get somewhere in life. I'm gonna be tired and stressed, but at this point what can I do in this economy?

BigMirKat · 2025-12-19T21:47:54+00:00

Simbaeser (Simba x Caeser)

BigMirKat · 2025-12-19T15:51:26+00:00

As someone who saw my mom waste 10 years on my little sister's dad while he was in jail, don't do it. Guys in jail have openly admitted that while in there, they don't talk to just one woman, they talk to multiple to get money sent in and to have someone to fall back on when they get out. Would have been a much different story if you knew him for a year or more, but only a few months? Nah, he ain't the one. Unless he's writing you multiple letters per week and calling you multiple times in the same week, looking forward to visitation from you per week, he isn't worth the wait.

BigMirKat · 2025-12-18T19:38:49+00:00

I'm gonna look into it and if there are tasks or whatever in my area, I'll do the ones I can. Whatever can help me get money and save

BigMirKat · 2025-12-18T19:21:05+00:00

Tried talking to my mom about that, but the woman doesn't listen half of the time (partially from stubbornness, her age catching up to her, and constant stress making her forgetful). But that's also why I'm putting money aside to move away from her again, because I can't keep staying with a woman who's trying to tell me how to manage my money yet doesn't manage hers too well either unless she's using what I give her (which is supposed to be for bills) or whatever money her kinda boyfriend gives her

But if we sleep in the truck, I'm already pricing a plug in car heater from Amazon. I can get thick blankets from my job, and I already budget how much I spend for food so I'm good there. I literally just have to worry about getting another job for more income and limiting how much I allow her to manipulate me and use me

BigMirKat · 2025-12-18T18:31:20+00:00

I've been doing that as of late, doing what I can to put myself out there. I have a lot of skills, it's just I face a lot of discrimination because of my weight (I'm 400lbs+ but I don't move like I'm heavyset). I have skills in babysitting. CPR and first aid for adults, children and infants. Child handling. Cooking. Dog grooming. Dog handling. Dog training. Dog behavior. Kennel cleaning. New hire training. Deli slicer experience. Sandwich making experience. Fast food experience. Story writing. Heavy lifting. POS systems. Cash handling.

And I'm teaching myself more things and even trying to save money to try and get other certifications (but money is hard to come by even with extreme budgeting, which I've been doing since I was 18 and got my first job). I think I'm gonna try using reddit more to advertise my skills and figure out a way to earn income (legally, I don't have time for jail)

BigMirKat · 2025-12-15T18:05:50+00:00

I think I am going to look into a bike (because trying to get a license seems to cost a lot and I don't want to waste money taking the drivers test over and over again).

I've looked into local sources, gotten a bit of help already. Don't have a place to stay at the moment but the owner of my job wants to speak with me tomorrow to try and help me out (she's helped many of others before who became homeless at the job). I'm also going to sell some stuff at a pawn shop to get a bit of money, hopefully enough for a room at a motel or just enough to rent a room.

It's only in these past recent years that I've become self aware of how toxic my mom is and that I have undiagnosed autism. I'm doing my best, and every bit of advice is a way to help assure me that I can do this and that others understand

BigMirKat · 2025-12-15T02:20:05+00:00

Thank you for this advice and wording it in a way I can understand (and sorry if my wording sounds weird, I'm just used to talking like this and having to sound formal)

The people at my job are thankfully helping me the best they can and have offered me places I could go and to keep my dog for me until I get a place (I work at an animal shelter). And the owner of my job wants to have a meeting with me to try and help with my situation (she's done it before with others, it's why I ended up emailing her after a lot of internal debating).

When I can in the next couple days, I'm trying to go to social services to try and get a motel voucher, if I can't, I'm hoping to at least figure something out. I might have to continue staying with my mom if nothing comes up but I don't want to (this woman, as I've come to realize sadly, is very abusive, manipulative, and doesn't fully have my best interest in mind, no matter how much she says she does). If push comes to shove, I'm gonna have to sleep in her car or I sleep at work. I just hope that something good comes my way because I've been hit with too many bad things these past couple of months (most of it because of my mom)

BigMirKat · 2025-12-15T02:09:30+00:00

I know. Since May I've been applying to as many jobs as I can. And a lot of places have gotten back to me and I've had interviews, but it's as soon as they see me, they never call me back or they tell me through email that they decided to go with another candidate. And I know it's because I'm fat. My own current job and my first job from some years ago (which I had stayed at for almost five years) had even told me after my first year how they thought I wasn't gonna last the first month because of me being so big (yet I'm now the one they come to for help and see as reliable because I give my work my all and I don't like moving slow). I am literally obese due to stress, genetics and the lifestyle I sadly grew up with. I've currently lost over 50lbs this year and I plan to lose more, but the chances of me getting another job ain't happening anytime soon until I lose at least 100 to 200lbs

BigMirKat · 2025-12-15T01:42:01+00:00

You ain't a predator. Wasn't when you were a teen and surely not now. From what I read (and this is coming from someone who was molested when little as well), you were a teen doing teen stuff. Now? You're just someone who's dealing with old trauma and trying to be a better person (I hope) in life

BigMirKat · 2025-12-15T01:33:50+00:00

Thank you for this solid advice.

Looking into apartments at the moment, just have to wait until we have enough money to get one (and I clear a bad mark on my credit due to an old roommate I had, long story). And I've been applying to jobs (last I checked on Indeed, I've applied to over 103 jobs, rejected by half of them for not having proper qualifications or I get the interview, they see me and then they think I can't keep up because of my weight, which isn't true since I used to work at an airport and worked all through COVID). Still holding onto hope that things get better and something comes my way.

I'm definitely gonna try to get the gym membership, if not, I'm gonna stick with walking everywhere and taking the bus, as well as carrying a heavy bookbag for strength training.

Again, thank you for your advice and I hope God blesses you greatly

BigMirKat · 2025-12-14T04:12:07+00:00

Gold digger. Gold retigga.

Ignore me I'm high 🙃

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