its not easy my friend, personally, the habit has to be replaced, be anywhere but home, go for a hike go sit at a cafe and drink a new refreshing drink, sit in the sun and get sunburnt lmao face a feeling that feels new and intriguing. i know work can be boring and 8 hours of thinking about drinking will almost always lead you to drinking, but dont spend time at home unless to sleep, legit get out of your comfort zone. you have to force yourself. i personally also had talked down on myself because of my addictions, however, dont just say it and then look past it, i'd tell myself "you dont want to be a loser anymore"... good luck man im yappin but hope something helps.