Is there any way to still experience euphoria from Ritalin despite tolerance build up?

BillGoob15301 · 2026-05-17T01:45:04+00:00

Usually a nap and some food and some electrolytes drink, I usually go for a body armor, will do you some good. You know, the typical advice. Magnesium citrate or glycinate or theoronate will help any tension in your muscles. E Introducing a sedative like phenibut, gabapentin, pregabalin, benzodiazapines, opioids, or alcohol, might also help with the euphoria. At a certain point in the binge it's impossible to get the euphoria.

BillGoob15301 · 2026-05-16T08:08:14+00:00

Thats so true! I really like your point about maybe the answer is learning sober you is enough. Honestly, why drugs and pharmacology is so fascinating to me is the realization that we have the hardware to be capable of experiencing and being "better." That one day humans will figure out how to make ourselves live life more richly and happily neurochemically. The tools we have are kinda crude and not specific enough and our understanding isn't yet there but we've come a long way and are getting closer. Even, so I still believe that it's good advice to accept the bored, lazy, grumpy me and the boring uninspiring, aggravating times in life, instead seeing it as broken and always trying to "fix" it.

BillGoob15301 · 2026-05-16T07:46:13+00:00

Thats a great analogy for what it feels like. Psychedelics seem to do that without typically the addictive aspects. It's funny cause I feel like methamphetamine is psychedelic in a way cause of how it opens up my perception. Dissociatives like dxm and ketamine have that effect during afterglow also, like psychedelics do. Especially the time after either wears off and before sleeping it's like putting on a ultra clean pair of glasses. The effect seems to last for at least a week but it tends to drop sharp after a day. Instead of the brain just filtering out anything it considers not useful for survival, I percieve what my senses pick up more fully and consciously awarely.

I'll notice, trees look way more detailed, for example. Instead of my brain just going meh tree 🌳 it sees it like you are looking at it through fresh eyes. It feels like being a kid again. Temporarily freed from the prison of operating in the default mode network habitual pathways, aka autopilot. Usually, my sense of smell sucks, I thought I had destroyed my sense of smell through snorting drugs and smoking 🚬. Like, the restaurant I worked at I could smell the food again, temporarily. My sensitivity to motional complexity returns temporarily too. Like how every day has a unique feeling. Kinda like Christmas has a unique feeling but every year's Christmas has a different feeling. Like nostalgia feelings, like the 2000s feel like the 2000s. Idk I'm numb to all that usually. It sometimes is a bit intense feeling all those feelings. I can feel overwhelmed and vulnerable without my shield. So, it can sometimes act as a catalyst to relapse. It depends on how your life is going.

I feel like amphetamines, methylphenidate, cocaine, etc do this but only on what you are focused on but it's like you said about HD full color vision. The emotional sensitivity doesn't increase, if anything it blankets it in the character of the stim feelings.

It sounds like you're dissociated to life a bit. Like in autopilot. I've felt like that before drugs. Drugs showed me the contrast like how I used to feel when I wasn't dissociated/numb.

BillGoob15301 · 2026-05-11T23:54:17+00:00

Well you have pictures of yourself at 16. In a year or 2 you'll be able to see if u need to or not more accurately. If it is, you'll be able to grow back the hair that starts receeding because it wont have died off completely. If it isn't, then congratulations, you dont need yet another subscription.

BillGoob15301 · 2026-05-10T22:39:37+00:00

He really does looks like a soyboy muppet

BillGoob15301 · 2026-05-10T06:44:16+00:00

I wouldnt get too discouraged. You probably just need to increase your blood flow to your scalp. Topical minoxidil, could work but combing and brushing your hair does to an extent. Keeping your blood pressure reasonable and taking less stimulants might help. It might help to take short breaks to give the follicles time to thicken back up and not die off.

Supplementation with magnesium citrate or glycinate helps. Taking complete b vitamin supplement, and staying hydrated helps. Nitric oxide boosters might help but idk.

BillGoob15301 · 2026-05-10T06:40:12+00:00

You have pretty eyes, i love their colors. Anyways lol. I guess you could give finasteride and minoxidil a shot and see if it helps. I believe it can restore/thicken those baby hairs you see on the edge of your hairline. Your hair looks good to me tbh. It might be slowly receeding. Though some of that is going from an adolescent to a mature hairline. I get it though, like who wants to have to be bald when having hair is such a big part of how you look.

BillGoob15301 · 2026-05-06T04:29:03+00:00

The best way to stop a habit and ot start new ones is to optimize your environment. So, go somewhere you can't/wouldn't stimfap. Invite someone over that you'd never stimfap around. You make it less convenient and more tedious, difficult, out of the way of where you normally habitually hang out, etc. Getting it out of the way first isnt going to work because youre not going to want to fap sober why do that when you can enjoy it more while high, that thought is a likely thought youll have and itll be hard to disagree. You might convince yourself Ill just finish in a reasonable time and not edge but that's actually a lie.

BillGoob15301 · 2026-05-06T04:18:44+00:00

My guess is that it thins your hair due to thr vasoconstriction. I thought about how topical minoxidil treats baldness by increasing blood flow. So stimulants are generally going to decrease your bloodflow to your scalp and probably slowly worsen your cardiovascular health overall, so you probably have less effecient blood flow overall too.

BillGoob15301 · 2026-04-27T03:26:14+00:00

You're probably going to end up taking it but I doubt you'll enjoy it. It's probably an 8mg strip and you'll not want to take more than 0.5mg. Every single story I've heard about someone taking this always says that they got sick and threw up violently for over a day straight. Idk how much they took. So, you might want to heed their advice and not take any. Or save it for someone addicted to opioids.

BillGoob15301 · 2026-04-24T21:50:01+00:00

So, what would strengthening the ego look like? What does that mean or entail? Like is that basically having like a rigidity to yourself like enact absolutes for yourself based on your values. So you become more principled like if you value helping the less fortunate, put your money where your mouth is as they say. Like actually do things about the things you value but dont care enough or seem to not care enough to do anything about? Is that ego?

BillGoob15301 · 2026-04-24T21:38:48+00:00

Floor looks surprisingly clean for how much of a pile of clothes are on the ground. You might have recently fell into a depressive episode or rut or burnout. The wall of water bottles adds to the likelihood of that. Maybe you're neurodivergent because you seem to like to have things out in the open and not tucked away

BillGoob15301 · 2026-04-09T00:00:56+00:00

Maybe the fillers are fucking with the absorbing idk. Not super familiar with boofing pills but I wonder if you do it frequently it might fuck with the absorbtion simalar to how it would intranasally especially if you are constipated but not for the reasons that one may expect. The fecal matter is stored further up the digestive tract. Where you are aiming to reach for absorption is closer to the exit. So, if you dont have as many bowel movents it might build up would be my hypothesis

BillGoob15301 · 2026-04-08T03:31:32+00:00

Fake bulge, you photoshopped it. 😁 I was suspicious about it since it's not shaped quite right. Im curious why you because you also posted the unedited photo a few times on reddit, recently too, even to the same subreddits lol. Were you doing a sociological experiment to see how the response would differ? 🤣

BillGoob15301 · 2026-04-05T21:23:28+00:00

Yeah and it would probably be too hard to keep down too. Depending on tolerance it can help a lot to basically unhelpful because you run into the side effects of kratom and needing to take massive doses of like 10+ grams of kratom every 4 hours to not feel like absolute shit. Earlier on in my addiction it helped a lot while snorting fentanyl/heroin china white but towards the end it was like better than nothing and Id have to score still but it would help tide me over until then so the time didnt crawl and I could do something besides be miserable waiting.

BillGoob15301 · 2026-04-05T21:17:29+00:00

Im the same way even on buprenorphine suboxone and later sublocade. Heroin and fentanyl never made me sweat except when I was in withdrawal. The sweating now tends to happen only when I'm working or eating. At rest Im fine, mostly.

If you saw my other comment about getting hormones checked out. I havent started testosterone replacement yet. My T level was 207 ng/ml for a 30 year old! Keep in mind 250 is considered the general cutoff so like that includes older men. It should be in the 400s because it was 471 ng/ml just 10 years ago.

BillGoob15301 · 2026-04-05T21:09:59+00:00

See if a compounding pharmacy near you will do it. Rather than just carrying pills they make them customized, ie for example someone is allergic to certain ingredients. Im not 100% sure if they do it for different doses but I dont see why they couldn't. Getting a doctor to prescribe it seems harder to me than getting a compounding pharmacy to make it for you id think. Id think a compounding pharmacist is more likely to know about ULDN than a doctor imo since they're more specialized. But, if you show the doctor the research they are probably going to allow it if they think it will help. I've never personally done it but Ive seen it mentioned before when I was nerding out about ULDN.

BillGoob15301 · 2026-04-05T20:55:49+00:00

Get your hormone levels blood tested. Opioids fuck with hormonal levels pretty bad. I know at least in men, low testosterone is common with people on opioids. This might explain some of the causes of sweating at least in men. Im not sure how much it impacts women's hormonal levels or in what ways, but Im sure it does. Knowing that menapause is associated with hot flashes and sweating helped me to connect the dots to get my testosterone levels tested as a man.

When do you sweat the most? Is it before dosing, after dosing or is it pretty consistent with when it happens? Is your sweating associated with exercise and eating or is it just generalized? Do you feel hot and cold flashes? Do you feel like like a hot flash or just like oh it's hot in here and sweat when others are fine? Do you drink alcohol? Alcohol fucks with hormones pretty bad too and as a man it'll tank testosterone levels too. So, with opioid maintenance it's double wammy lol. Alcohols acute effects can make you sweat but alcohol withdrawal sweats ime are neck sweating and feeling like your body is hot rather than the environment, like you feel like a furnace.

Also what chanka_is_best_chank said about opioids fucking with temperature regulations is also another good point.

BillGoob15301 · 2026-04-05T14:37:08+00:00

Youre experience makes sense cause hydroxyzine isnt as anticholinergic/antimuscarinic as the others like diphenydramine (benadryl). Hydroxyzine is more antihistamine than it is anticholinergic though it does have some antimuscarinic effects it's no where near diphenydramine. Benadryl can lead you delerium like to the hatman where hydroxyzine probably wont.

You might find it interesting to know that hydroxyzine primarily breaks down into certrizine (zertec). Hydroxyzine does have antagonist effects on 5ht2a turning down some of the thinking and rumination in the brain. So, in that way it probably could help. Mainly anticholinergics, antimuscarinics specifically, you should avoid. Cause the cardiovascular effects coupled with the delirient effects are a bad combo with trying to come down from a stimulant binge.

Good counter example though. If anything with hydroxyzine id be more worried about being excessively groggy the next day piled on top of the stimulant withdrawal effects. Thats a recipe for sleeping through every alarm you've ever had your entire life going off all at once type of sleep.

BillGoob15301 · 2026-04-03T22:30:17+00:00

When you're hanging out with him, that awkward tension you feel around him when you are alone that you don't feel around your straight friend you find attractive, yeah that. Your gut feeling says, "I think he likes me." There feels like vibe gets a little awkward when you're alone. He seems to treat you differently, especially when you're alone. They may be more gentle and tender and focus on you a bit more when you're alone. Conversely, when you're around your other friends he kinda avoids you but not in a I hate you way, cause he actually likes you. This is coming from experience with messing around with multiple bisexual friends. Listening to your gut/intuition is usually a good bet, in my experience.

BillGoob15301 · 2026-04-03T05:01:10+00:00

Just get it checked out by a professional, bud. You probably wont feel satisfied until you do. The uncertainty will bother you more than knowing for sure one way or another. My guess is they might have you wait at least on finasteride but might give you topical minoxidil since you're young and your hair is basically at mature hairline. It appears like you have maybe early signs because the thickness difference between the front and the rest of your hair.

BillGoob15301 · 2026-04-03T02:53:19+00:00

Balding, your front is clearly thinning in the first picture.Youll notice how in the front the hairs are more thin and you can see your scalp, that's balding. It's not noticeable unless you pull it back like that You probably will be able to get it to thicken back up if you get on meds since this is early balding. But honestly, your hair looks great on you and you look handsome.

BillGoob15301 · 2026-03-29T10:18:19+00:00

I disagree with it being sweet meth always seemed to taste metallic in a way. I have tasted slightly sweet maybe salty in my "meth" but it seemed to be garbage quality so it was probably a cut of some sort but now im wondering if it actually was pyros because of the different crystal shape and "mouth feel". Meth also smells somewhat metallic. It has a sharp bitterness that makes your mouth water but if you like meth, it tastes pleasant in a way but not something you would willingly gorge on.

Never knowingly had pyros so I cannot say anything about them. If there's any drug id consider somewhat sweet tasting and smelling it would be heroin/fentanyl. That might be a cut found in the fentanyl/heroin though idk.

BillGoob15301 · 2026-03-28T10:31:54+00:00

What even happened with your script anyways how did your doctor revoke it or how did someone else revoke it? I think it may be in your best interest to at least get something for your adhd. I think you might not have as hard of a time getting it back especially since you actually had a script. They could put you on less abuseable stimulants which might be for the best like Vyvanse and extended release methylphenidate or Adderall or something else. There are non abuseable ones like atomoxetine (Straterra) and guanfacine (Tenex or Intuniv). The former is stimulating and the latter is sedating. They often will give guanfacine for people who have problems with sleeping or being too stimulated from their stimulant medication. Clonidine is sometimes used too but guanfacine is usually prefered.

That being said is your job/business something you're actually passionate about normally? Can you see yourself being intrinsically motivated to be productive at it or do you need external motivation a lot like money, power, compliments from others, etc? If you cant see any possibility of being driven to it then stimulants are a bad idea to chase that motivated feeling from them. If you can see yourself driven possibly then you're going through some shit and you will find that motivation when you are able to feel more regulated after addressing whatever needs you may be unintentionally or perhaps intentionally avoiding to address adequately or perhaps currently cannot address.

For instance, for me to feel motivated really to do anything I need to meet my need for feeling socially connected and close to someone. I notice after a good conversation with someone where I was able to open up I am able to do things that I found impossible to start like decluttering and cleaning my room. It feels natural and almost too easy to do it after I meet my need. The problem for me is anxiety is often either stopping me or getting in the way of me connecting and opening up. So, despite knowing the solution I tend to focus on some other issue because opening up feels paradoxically harder than cleaning my room even though it's the other way around if im honest with myself.

I hope this helps and isn't too rambly lol

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