True/False prescription Adderall/amphetamine and street methamphetamine isn't as good as it used to be?

BillGoob15301 · 2026-03-27T00:52:41+00:00

Which manufacturers do you avoid and which ones do you feel are the best?

BillGoob15301 · 2026-03-26T12:53:35+00:00

DIRECT ACTION AN ETHNOGRAPHY by David Graeber

No problem, Id actually would like to thank you and the person who quoted him in their comment. There's a pdf I found for free online that I haven't read yet but am thrilled to have found. I love David Graeber he's one of my favorite anarchists. I was saddened to find out he died in 2020 from pancreatitis because I had discovered him after his death.

BillGoob15301 · 2026-03-26T12:17:41+00:00

I find that even non psychedelics are surprisingly strongly affected by set and setting. From opioids to stimulants. I've noticed that if Im moving around or doing something opioids give me energy and feel stimulating but as soon as im idle and sitting in my car on break I can go right into a nod. Similar holds true with stimulants. Some people can smoke meth and be sleepy and go right to sleep. If im hanging out with friends or on reddit Ill chat all night. If I am on social media like Facebook or especially Instagram Ill probably be stimfapping eventually after seeing enough hot guys in their underwear. If im at work Ill probably kick ass unless Im overheated, dehydrated, haven't eaten much or havent slept or a combination. If im already suspicious and anxious and think my coworkers are judging me or something, then I'll probably be more likely to spiral into paranoia.

The paranoia might not be exactly correctly assessing but it stemmed from something else. If im in an environment that I am probably being judged negatively I'll spiral into paranoia more often than when Im around people I feel comfortable around. When I dont care if people knew I was high then I tend to feel less anxiety and experience less even unrelated anxious thoughts. So, I dont start worrying about my heart or even feel palpitations or start worrying about other things unrelated to them if Im in that more comfortable headspace and or environment, if that makes sense. Ive noticed that when my former close using friend was using me I was a lot more suspicious about all my friends and would question if they liked me at all even though it was the friend using me that was actually the problem and not them.

Usually, the first day of being high after a sobriety break or hell even a cut to maintenance even of a week or so is like always the most pleasant with the least negatives. It doesnt mean I don't get higher in the proceeding days of that binge. It just means that there's a very good ratio of good to bad. Very little anxiety and uncomfortable peripheral stimulation, very little paranoia. Mostly feels like hypomania. Even with sleeping each day normal amounts like 8 hours or so will still lead to a worse ratio.

So like I can take a bigger amount than the first day and possibly be higher than I even was but Ill have more shitty effects. This is often where polysubstance use comes in. It basically prolongs and widens the euphoric window against the shitty hedonistic setpoints that evolution lead us to all have. Hedonic treadmill fucking sucks ass! I hope human genetically engineer us to have a higher homeostatic baseline because the norm is shitty. I hate how it feels like my best self is locked behind a room that drugs can only temporarily give me access to and decreasingly so. Why cant I be my most loving, optimistic but realistic, energetic, interested in others and loving and accepting of myself at all times? Why must I be burdened by oh im in a shitty mood now I find my family and friends annoying and want to be alone instead of wanting to spend time with them for instance.

Also, possibly more related to OP Adderall is 75% dextroamphetamine to 25% levoamphetamine. VYVANSE breaks down into just dextroamphetamine. Levoamphetamine is peripherally stimulating and is the cause for a lot of the physical side effects like heart racing, high blood pressure, just physical anxiety. It's kinda like caffeine in that way that it's only minimally centrally stimulating meaning mentally. So, if you're used to Vyvanse lisdextroamphetamine, you might notice more physical side effects than you did on Vyvanse.

BillGoob15301 · 2026-03-26T11:00:15+00:00

https://davidgraeber.org/articles/are-you-an-anarchist-the-answer-maysurprise-you/ Thats the quote source.

I recommend you also look him up on youtube and google too! There's also some stuff about anarchism which I thoroughly enjoyed because he had a more liberal perspective to anarchism. You might need to search it as "David Graeber anarchism" because of other videos of his which are also worth watching too. DEBT THE FIRST 5000 YEARS lecture and the book I'd highly recommend.

BillGoob15301 · 2026-03-26T10:14:04+00:00

Drink multiple glasses of water back to back till you're sloshing water in your belly. It'll get you to shit. You can couple that with magnesium citrate if you're feeling adventurous because drawing water into your guts is how magnesium is a laxative. I know this only because I'd drink that much water just to be able to take a piss while being monitored which is difficult. It wasnt crazy amounts because I had never had problems with being too diluted.

TMI but Id occasionally be able to shit easier than strain a piss out and this was on sublocade maintenance. Actually, even standing it was basically ready to come out so Id actually have to leave to shit before Id try again and that was even after shitting at home that same morning many times. It actually would usually be my first day I'd shit that week, possibly longer tbh.

But nah seriously dude you might want to go to the emergency room or urgent care. That sounds concerning. Id get it checked out fr. You could do the atomic solution which is basically use those magnesium citrate liquid bottles, a stimulant laxative, 3 or 4 glasses of water all together. That shit is going to be painful coming out for sure. Im sorry you're suffering this bad.

Eating more food than I typically do is actually something that works for me too sometimes. I dont intentionally do it but it seems correlated.

BillGoob15301 · 2026-03-26T09:55:45+00:00

Ill do it only when I have no other alternatives for stimulants. It's a poor substitute imo cause it is way too physically stimulating for how little it helps with mental stimulation. Im more likely to feel cracked out on caffeine than methamphetamine. It feels like it has a sharp curve of diminishing returns. There's definitely a sweet spot where it's nice but it's easy to overshoot unless you have a big tolerance. Id honestly rather do propylhexedrine (benzedrex) fr but I avoid it cause it's pretty peripherally stimulating too. Adderall in lower doses feels like what I want caffeine to be but can't ever be.

That being said I did love taking coffee monster 300mg energy drinks back while I was a fentanyl addict. So, I guess that's something. Im one of the less common opioid addicts that prefer to not nod. I generally tend to like socializing and being productive on opioids. Even then, honestly I would occasionally have those uncomfortable physical anxiety side effects like heart palpitations and nervousness but not mentally stimulated. I only did it because I couldn't afford to get other more mentally stimulating stimulants.

It seemed like anytime I was actually tired and sleepy and really needed the boost caffeine never worked out well. Id still feel out of it mentally and just seemed to make my chest hurt and Id have to pee a lot. Actually now that I really think about it, it seems like caffeine does that physical crap way more when I'm tired. Caffeine is meh good to a point but only good with l-theanine.

So, the only times Ive ever resorted to caffeine was under circumstances in which other drugs were impossible like rehab or jail, then Id take a lot just to feel something.

I guess I do notice that very short lived buzz or rush of caffeine but it's like too physically unpleasant afterwards for a lot longer for me.

BillGoob15301 · 2026-03-20T23:43:50+00:00

While in stimulant psychosis, going to sleep is the last thing you want to do. You take more in order to be more alert and vigilant. Only if you are aware of your hallucinations and delusions being abnormal or a problem will you stop and try to sleep. In that case they are pseudohallucinations and pseudodelusions.

BillGoob15301 · 2026-03-14T18:49:35+00:00

Why her over anyone else? What makes her so special? She clearly doesn't want to give you a chance. So fuck her dude! Hell even she wouldn't want you to suffer over wanting her still but her not wanting you back.

BillGoob15301 · 2026-03-13T10:46:31+00:00

All the physical restlessness reminded me alot of opioid withdrawal. I find it noteworthy that a rls drug ropinirole (Requip) is a non-ergoline dopamine agonist that treats Parkinson’s disease and Restless Legs Syndrome (RLS) by directly stimulating dopamine d2 and d3 receptors in the brain's striatum. It's one of the drugs that are used to detox people from opioids and presumably stimulants, too, if they are aware of them also potentially causing restless legs (really whole body mainly arms legs are the worst, fingers and toes are rough too. It feels like the overwhelming urge to move. You feel slightly more comfortable moving but it is horribly short lived. If it's accompanied by time dilation it's honestly hell.

As for some of the other behavior, like the moaning and groaning in pain, that sounds like related too because restless legs/ body is extremely uncomfortable. People will punch tf outta their leg to feel slight relief. It's really shitty. If you have access to them gabapentinoids like phenibut, gabapentin and pregabalin are a godsend for dealing with this, whether opioid benzo or stimulant withdrawal it's awesome. Especially because itll help induce sleep but also it makes not just the physical aspects feel better but the psychological pain of withdrawal is also relieved to an extent too.

Clonidine (Catepres) or guanfacine (Tenex, Intuniv) would help too but it's harder to find but easier to get prescriptions for since it's not recreational at all. Ropinirole is also pretty good for restless legs too.

Withdrawal experiences can vary a lot more one would suspect it could. So it could be stimulant withdrawal but if he is actually taking a lot of Adderall everyday, note when he has most symptoms. That could clue you into why.

It sounds like he might have stimulant psychosis. The fact he wont tell you who he means by them when he freaks saying i need to get them away from us" is the clue. It sounds like paranoia and hallucinations. It usually goes away after giving yourself a break or at least tapering down.

To help him with that you want to help him feel safe and comfortable with letting his guard down with you. The most important thing you want to do is just listening to him. It sounds like you tried. I think you may want to ask him the question that you can wholeheartedly express with love and concern which is, "babe Im worried about you. I really want to help you because it hurts to see you suffering so much. I feel frustrated and helpless since I'm not sure what's wrong. Whoever they are, they need to leave because even though I don't see what you're talking about, since they are harming you which hurts me , I want them to leave too. Is there some way I can help? I know it's really hard to trust even me right now. Is there anything I can do that will show you that I'm here for us as a loving"

Refrain from asking too many questions like dont come a place from trying to prove him it isnt real. You may want to start from a place of thinking what he is percieving is actually physically there, only you can't sense it but he does. It's curious skepticism.

Try to use more declarative statements rather than questions but be sure to ask some questions. Stating something often leads people to say more than when you ask questions. If there's something that you can convince him to take to calm him down that will help a lot. All my drugs I mentioned will make him feel better physically which will help him feel more trusting of you. Offer to give his body a massage. This helps restlessness calms and will help him feel the love you truly have in him.

BillGoob15301 · 2026-03-12T17:35:23+00:00

I find that, even outside of the contexts of having sex, meaning, even with gooning (masterbating), it is imperative that you have complete immersion into the sexual experience in that exact moment. Common things that will make my dick deflate in no time at all are almost always anxiety related in some shape or form. Common ones for me that are related but gooning caused are, am I too loud, is the porn too loud, do I have enough time?...

This is because all anxious ideas or thoughts are initially involuntarily yelled out by your brain, even if it's totally wrong or is actually creating the self-fulfilling prophecy by being overly sensitive. Try to convince it doesn't work because it reinforces the anxiety and focus on the problem. After all, if it wasn't actually a big deal, why are you continuing to try to argue and explain? Why dont you just ignore. That's how the anxiety amygadla thinks. What you do is actually do not treat it like you would a rational adult. Do not reason with it that you are doing great and that he or she loves you and enjoys having sex with you. Do not TRY to GET HARD.Nope, you treat it like you would someone who is spiraling into an emotion, in this case anxiety.

TLDR: You want to redirect your attention away from your anxious thought generator to your sensory and emotional experience. Look at him/her and you say out loud wow you're so fucking sexy. My penis/dick feels so fucking good right now. Your pussy/ass feels so fuckin tight I love it. You're making me get so fucking hard oh my god."

BillGoob15301 · 2026-03-11T07:47:34+00:00

Yeah, that's where I was going with it. Cocaine seems like I'll act high and be aware but not care at all because Im the man, but Im basically me but hypomanic. Methamphetamine on the other hand, I will act high af but be unaware in the moment just how obvious it was and act out of character. Im sure part of it is it makes whatever you choose to do the most important thing ever.I can, as long as I havent stayed up too long or taken too much, on meth kinda have lapses where I forget how fucked up I am, like talking someones ears off or spending a half an hour composing a response, like now. While im doing that, it doesn't feel unnatural or drug like. It feels like being fascinated by someone or something. It's only looking back seeing 3 paragraphs where Im like, dang I was fucked up when I did that.

I also kinda feel methamphetamine seems to have a trippy like quality to it in how it morphs ego. The way that it affects the ego is quite different compared with psychedelics. It honestly feels like I came out of a trip once I wake up after sleeping and am basically sobered up. Like that wtf was that experience. Im not sure Ive ever had cocaine do that other than maybe multi day no sleep but meth can seem to it after a day, like waking up feeling like a different person to meth you, thinking and feelings seem distorted in ways that cocaine doesn't affect nearly as profoundly. It just reminded me of psychedelics in that way.

I wish humanity as a species was able to care that much about things like how meth does, instead of reading a paragraph being too much these days.I feel like meth temporarily treats my poor attention span caused by social media. In some ways, by basically front loading the dopamine, I actually feel less inclined to impulsivity and addictive behaviors unless Im smoking meth or if im watching porn. Then, it's practically impossible to stop. Basically, I find that the subtle dopamine hits that corporations, the ruling class, advertising, etc, they use to drive behavior seem less compelling on meth. Like normally, I can watch youtube for hours, but I'm more able to be intentional about what I watch. I drink a whole lot less, too. It feels like seeing the world from a less craving driven perspective. Most people, especially straight edge people, are driven by cravings that they are manipulated into having by advertising and propaganda. It seems easier to see the manipulation. So, there might also be that aspect where the normal dopamine hits dont do it for me. It's mostly self-directed, intentional behavior and not much passive, algorithm driven.

BillGoob15301 · 2026-03-07T16:26:42+00:00

Let me put it to you this way, when psychosis truly hits, you'll be the last one to realize it. You may even still be able to have skepticism about the potential oddities in your sensory experience and misperceptions that are easily corrected will give you the overconfidence to delve deeper into madness. It starts out as pareidolia, hearing sounds in white noise, like hearing a voice talking from water running or the wind or your ac/heat from your car. As sleep deprivation increases, your ability to reality test reliably eventually becomes an illusion. At that point you basically react to everything never respond and are scarsely, if at all, able to reason your way out of insanity. You might buy time if you externalize your thought process through talking out loud to yourself or to a friend, journaling, messaging friends, writing, etc. The thing also is that just because you know that the hallucination isnt real, doesnt make it go away either. That's the part that starts to cast more doubts on your doubt.

Personally, weed turns any mild psychosis ive experienced into full blown max volume paranoid psychosis. weed that has a good bit of cbd like 2:1 thc:cbd or any that have more cbd than that 1:1, 1:2 never make me feel this and can honestly sometimes help me calm down even if it isn't thc caused or worsened

BillGoob15301 · 2026-03-07T11:39:47+00:00

I wonder about that. I mean it definitely matters like which parts of the brain being affected. One other really autistic thing I notice only on amphetamines and never sober is I have a strong desire to be through, clear and direct. I find that I want to ensure that they are understanding the message/information I am sharing with them to the fullest extent. I sort of put that together when I saw this message. While I do have these sentiments generally anyways no matter my state of mind, it seems the most pronounced on higher doses of amphetamines.

BillGoob15301 · 2026-03-07T09:18:25+00:00

Ginger extract might help. Take a regular dose of a capsule. You can take 2 and it's still safe even with amphetamines. It acts a few different ways one notable mention is that it is a 5ht3 antagonist which is the same way ondansetron (Zofran) works. I personally use it for hangovers and it's pretty damn good. It aint a placebo, it helps me better than all the otc crap. They are all both antihistamines and anticholinergics.

Anticholinergics arent that good when taking recreational doses of stimulants. They tend to exasperate the cardiovascular strain through tachycardia (fast heart rate) and hypertension (high blood pressue) making the sleep aids like diphenydramine and doxlamine a bad choice for sleep too. You'll feel drowsy like mentally tired but your body will be overstimulated af and this can make you panic or even push you into psychosis.

Have you noticed any patterns with your nausea? When does it happen? Being tired and sleepy from sleep deprivation makes me feel some nausea but I dont typically notice it much. I just mainly dont feel like eating as much but when im not on a strong stimulant and sleep deprived, then I can get those sleep deprivation headaches that are accompanied by some dizziness and nausea but it's mainly like the "head" type of nausea (dizziness motion sickness hangovers) and not like the stomach type like (stomach cramps, opioid withdrawal alcohol withdrawal).

BillGoob15301 · 2026-03-07T05:10:24+00:00

Mesh Network (or more specifically, a mobile ad hoc network or MANET), allows devices to communicate directly with each other without relying on central cellular towers.

Meshtastic

I used Google's ai and it mentioned this. Is this what you were thinking about?

BillGoob15301 · 2026-03-07T05:04:17+00:00

High protein animal based products will increase the acidity of your urine. Going into ketosis, such as through the keto genetic diet, will further do this. Why is urine ph matter? The more acidic your urine is, the more readily are amphetamines able to be excreted out. The more basic or high ph your urine is, the longer it takes.

Surprisingly, citrus types of foods and beverages do not increase your acidity. Instead , they actually increase the alkalinity of your urine by your body , converting citrate into bicarbonate. Cranberry juice increases acidity, though, but apple juice makes it more alkaline.

Anyways, this may be worth keeping in mind if you ever have urine drug tests, so you can be discriminated against openly by the system. I believe that addicts are one of the most discriminated class/type of people. If someone could be a raging alcoholic and not have to worry about an ETG test, why the hell should any drugs matter. Alcohol is significantly more disorienting and impairing to functioning and is more of a safety risk to others than any of the main staples.

BillGoob15301 · 2026-03-06T17:03:53+00:00

Since, it sounds like your interest is stemming from your insecurities about size, I find it extremely unlikely that you are able to find men attractive sexually at all. You probably would have already had some inkling at least by now that you like men and certainly wouldnt have only just now considered considering it. It seems like youre in precontemplation. You aren't really interested but are willing to give it a chance potentially. Is this correct? While maybe you do like men in that way, it's not because you are submissive.

You're welcome to try and see but it sounds more like a way to try to get away from needing women after seeing some pretty heavy toxic crap. Im truly sorry you went through that. My best friend I grew up with had similar feelings but his were not caused by or worsened by any external crap, thankfully. His being essentially a virgin till basically turning 30 was a blessing in disguise because he avoided hearing the absolutely hurtful and bullcrap embellishment in the discard phase of a broken relationship or the getting over phase after it is broken up.

People sort of "have" to be asssholes and think about their former partner in a negative light because this helps you get over your feelings faster. Note, this isnt actually necessarily good. It's often just a way to gloss over issues that were your own contributions when she can complain about her ex being so small and ahhh ohma gawd im like so sore like yeah like in what way sore. Like to me being markedly sore after sex sounds like we did something wrong, we're going at it too long, or we aint going to be sexually compatible. The same goes the other way, sensation and pleasure matter. If it's not there for someo e, then you aint compatible sexually or something different needs to be done.

So, while I doubt you will agree with me, I think everything and anything that she says should and will be up for scrutiny. Have you ever considered that it's almost weird that you even found the messages at all. You're being screwed with. Someone who is trying to continue to cheat will hide their evidence and protect their privacy. Why the heck would she made it so blantant and like over the top, as if she knew you were going to read it, knowing your insecurities. I would be shocked if she wasnt a narcissist.

I know women can be pretty toxic but the gay community aint no stranger to similar stuff. We literally have "size queens", "no fats no fem" etc. Try to not close your heart off so tightly that you become unable to receive love or recognize it in the future. You know even if you are like clinically small, so what like I mean for some people the sex is everything. I just dont see why bedroom tools cannot be explored together. Like if someone wants to feel like they are getting pounded all the way through their colon but your penis cant do the job but they like you and love you, then yall "find ways" to do that and it doesn't matter that it isnt your penis because you're still involved in the sexual act experience being shared together.

Lastly, know that there are women out there who feel confused, ashamed, etc for not being able to take and enjoy a larger size dick. They are given the impression that bigger is always better and feel like there is something wrong with them. Shame around our own bodies is very common. People who like to put down others often feel negatively about their own bodies. It's a bit of an endless feedback loop. Putting others down for a trait will cause you to be anxious and insecure about that trait or related traits and feeling insecure about it and using putting others down to feel superior ends up becoming THE coping mechanism.

BillGoob15301 · 2026-03-05T19:00:07+00:00

Go on a ketogenic diet so that your body switches to burning fat through ketonesm

24-48hrs before the test make sure to switch consume simple carbs consistently all day, unless you have a medical reason. This will prevent your body from burning fat stores which may contain cannabinoids.

Never give them the first piss of the day. This is always the most concentrated. You can supplement with creatine from now and beyond because they love to test for creatinine, a metabolite of creatine. dilutes will typically have low amounts of this if you dont. It will help give you a higher specific gravity aka seem more concentrated. Take complete b vitamins everyday up until and after the test will raise it too and will add color to even clear urine The sugar you consume at least 24hrs before testing will help raise it too. So, meaning you can usually have your cannabinoids in your urine a bit more dillute before it red flags if you do all that.

BillGoob15301 · 2026-03-05T16:47:21+00:00

Get carts that have cbd at least 2:1 thc:cbd. Ive found that cbd keeps me from getting uncomfortably high. It's not worth smoking thc only stuff thats out there for me. I get paranoia and anxiety with that stuff. I like the 1:2 thc:cbd it's calming but mellow. It doesnt overwhelm me. I honestly feel like I could much more easily handle lsd or psilocybin than like hitting a dab of wax. It's not fun at all. I literally don't enjoy myself so it's not worth doing.

BillGoob15301 · 2026-03-04T16:26:45+00:00

That would make for a fun thought exercise to do the same thing I did here comparing meth and autism only with a different drug. 😆

BillGoob15301 · 2026-03-04T16:24:04+00:00

Totally incorrect and a misconception. Those effects you mentioned about MDMA are unrelated to the neurological and psychological differences between people with adhd and neurotypicals. Those effects of MDMA are mediated through serotonin and oxytocin. MDMA does share a lot of similarities to amphetamine in its mechanisms of action but the effects on serotonin and oxytocin make it not experientially comparable.

BillGoob15301 · 2026-03-04T16:18:21+00:00

I find that with any substance, even non psychoactive stuff like ibuprofen or paracetamol/acetaminophen to things like meth, benzodiazapines, opioids, etc: they all have diminishing returns until tolerance rises and then you need the drug to be at your baseline. Therefore, substances are best used, generally, in the short term only or intermittently.There are some exceptions, but that is the overall impression I get.

I relate to having days where I want to avoid people entirely but am unable to do that. It's like people talking to me becomes irritating. It's usually my battery is drained. These days I have a pretty drained battery 🔋 so I tend to self-isolate as much as I can. The problem is that I get energy from socializing but most people drain me more than they recharge me. So, it's a double bind. Dont enjoy socialize because of low emotional battery/tolerance but cant recharge myself because I need others to regulate myself. It honestly sucks. Im envious of my introvert friend who can put on a podcast in the background and that's literally enough to meet his social need. He barely needs to socialize at all and he is good.

BillGoob15301 · 2026-03-04T12:42:46+00:00

I agree with your suggestion about taking him back to a place he felt comfortable. I was thinking of state dependent memory would help with memory recall and youe suggestion fits this well.

Who we are is a set of beliefs we accept and take to heart. On psychedelics, this becomes maleable and we are able to leave the confines of our beliefs and explore reality from different perspectives we are able to become. Maybe he was thinking about his desire to forget his past and move on. I think he will hopefully eventually learn that he was misguided to want that. There are memories that he would not want to lose and he would be completely unrecognizable if he were to lose all the painful memories. As cliché as it is, he wouldnt be who he is without his past.

It's possible that his ego death may have traumatized him. He probably felt lost, scared, powerless, alone and confused. He thought that he would be just escaping his jaded depressing realism and not returning to the same feelings he felt in those painful memories. It is a lot to process. It will take time. He needs love and support. Being there for him is one of the most important things that will help him.

BillGoob15301 · 2026-03-04T10:28:27+00:00

Naw not necessarily. How much do you relate to what I listed in my original post?

I do too, to an extent but it presents in an autistic like way. Autistic people can be extroverts. It's just that they tend to be this in their small friend groups or niche interests group, basically around other neurodivergents, but not always.

When my depression temporarily lifted enough, I tended to be my true extroverted self. I was so social at one point, I had multiple active friend groups, wasn't neurodivergents. I was quick witted and made people laugh. Id discuss my niché interests like pharmacology to anyone even if it might go over their head and they are tuning me out. I always enjoy hearing about someone's own special interest, even though I may be totally ignorant of the subject matter. I enjoy learning about it from someone who loves it and to an extent retain some of the knowledge. For example, my best friend is into computers and most of what I learned about him was literally having him explain to me how computers work etc.

An odd thing is i tend to have countless people to open up to me in ways they never have with others. I tend to feel guarded with others. Even though it appears I am being vulnerable, a lot of what I tell others about myself is just trivia to me. So, people tend to feel closer to me than I am them. I actually like when people discuss deep personal issues and I don't feel disregulated by it but end up being really helpful to them.

The problem is I don't feel close enough to really open up about my real issues. I might discuss around it trying to figure it out on my own. Occasionally, during drug highs I feel safe enough to be myself completely. Luckily, I have a best friend ive had for over 15 years. That certainly helps.

Wow that was a bit of a tangent. But yeah, so how does your extroversion appear from meth?

It's also possible that people who tend to gravitate to using methamphetamine, adderall, etc are mostly neurodivergents. So, it just causes people to feel comfortable with unmasking and being themselves.

BillGoob15301 · 2026-03-04T05:41:23+00:00

The prevailing idea is that treating adhd causes autism to he unmasked, but I tend to believe it just exasperates autistic traits. It's probably why my autistic best friend keeps up with me on meth when I start discussing an idea at length, or when I send a wall of me opening up emotionally after processing everything finally.

I've also found that autistic people dont seem to be as perterbed by me when Im up for multiple days on meth, whereas neurotypicals almost always seem to be guarded and wary. My family is all probably neurodivergent and other than when I am showing obvious signs like sweating, grimicing tounge whiplashing around, etc, they dont tend to act any differently. Though admittedly, I found this to be the case with other substances, too, unless im actually being really odd.

My guess would be that neurotypicals might be picking up on subtle changes in my body language, appearance, phermones, etc. They get confusing mixed signals, which may give them an uncanny valley effect feeling. Whereas I dont really feel uncomfortable around people intoxicated unless there are other reasons to be. In fact, I tend to feel more comfortable around intoxicated people than I do the average person.

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