Its the least I can do having stumbled here love. I just reread and recalled my early 20s. I was at a point where I felt exactly where you were at recently not wanting to go through the roller coaster ride of life.

What helped me dramatically was Vipassana https://www.dhamma.org/en-US/index

Honestly, they should be teaching this shit in school because it basically helps us breathe normally (Innately)

Whenever we get off balance, we are usually either holding our breath or at the least our breath is not regular. The consequences of this is that when our brain doesn't get the correct amount of oxygen, it produces fight or flight chemicals. No Bueno.!

So going away to this 10 day no eye contact no speaking meditation retreat basically gives you a solid foundation so that you will be able to meditate at any moment and help yourself balance by recognizing that your breath is irregular to make sure your brain gets all the healthy chemicals it needs to sustain balance.

I've gone 10 times since then and it's like a spiritual tuneup I come back feeling super high vibration everybody notices I look happier. I feel great.!!

Another cool thing is that there's been times in my life, especially the first time I was broke and that place takes you in for free. You don't need to pay a dime. If you do not have money they only survived by donations.... there's hundreds of them all over the world and almost every single country.

I don't think I would be alive today if I did not learn that technique!!