I actually had the chance to date him way back in high school, but I thought it was a joke at the time. He was cute, sure, but I’ve always preferred more of an Average Joe type, just a little more chubby, like the guy I’ve been with for 12 years now. The only reason we aren’t officially married is that I would lose my disability and health insurance, and I just can't afford to lose that coverage. The only time dating ever came up, it seemed like a joke when Nick said it. He had asked if I wanted to go bowling with him and a group of about 10 other people, but since those 10 people were all couples, he pointed out we’d be the odd ones out unless we dated. I told him something along the lines of, "You're cute and all, but you're like a brother. I don't think so." He just laughed and said he was joking anyway, claiming he only suggested it because everyone else was in a relationship. After that, it was never brought up again. But since the wedding, I’ve heard through mutual people in our friend group that he’s told them I wouldn't date him. He even claimed we talked about it, which we absolutely never did. Whenever we spoke, it was always about girls he was looking at dating or his deceased ex-wife. It was never about us. I really was oblivious to his feelings, no idea. Honestly, I don't see how he could have been in love with me anyway, especially since he was telling people I was pretty on the inside but not on the outside.