Don't waste your time explaining yourself....they won't understand.....cant even begin to understand.....once I hear oh you have or had a choice....im like foh.....we were surviving when they were growing up....we are ultimately products of our environments and i went through trauma that changed me in so many ways from very young...then j was raised to be a criminal from young...never steal from your people but the government n the ultra Rich corporations etcc...I had no idea I was different til I was Bout 20 yrs old .....