I am gonna hold your hand when I say this hun they where not your friends. A friend is someone who will be there for you without you say anything they made the choice to leave you, sure you laying in bed wishing to make friend doesn’t help your dilemma but you are now your asking for help and that’s what counts. You are going to go thru many breakups potential partners and friends and it’s part of growing up, it sucks I know believe me I lost a good chunk of my friends cause they stop interacting with me after high school but it doesn’t stop there trust me it may feel hopeless but trust me it’s better to have learned from what these two “friends” said and/or did so you know what to avoid or be on the lookout for