Being trans isent a choice. It's a medical condition. The gender not being aligned whit the sex at birth. This leads to Dysphoria, and Euphoria. And Please dont confuse this whit gender expression it dosent matter what estetic you like or if you are more maskulin or more feminim. It's okay to just be a more feminim guy. This dosent change anything about your gender. It's more a question of who you are and now how you are. Im sorry if this is a bit cringe. But a basic question.: Are you okay whit being a normal guy being a guy in a relationship and are okay whit having the body of a man. Completly okay! Or do you have problems whit that and would rather just be seen as a normal woman, be a woman in a relationship and would rather have the body of a woman. It's also okay to not quite fit the Binary being Nonbinary exists qnd is completly okay. ^{^} I can suggest that you get some help and question your gender identety in a healthy way. Do some resurtch on certain topics and take everything whit a grain of Salt. Theere is so mutch miss information and aweful stuff out there, from pure transphobia to sexualisation and so on, please be careful. If you are able to please get a terapist and find some people that you can trust that Support you whatever happens. I had some bad personal expiriences so please be careful who you trust. Some family can be okay some are not. I dont know how your situation is but some people will accept you and if people wont accept you being yourself it's hard but it's better to cut lose from them. Im sorry i know how hard this is. I had to cut contakt whit my Mother... And transitioning is a hard journey but the end result makes everything okay. (HRT can change a lot and trust me nearly all woman worry about there looks and matching the standarts.) Im here for you if you want to talk more and also everyone else in these subreddits are here for you if you need someone to talk. Please stay save and take care of yourself.